OH!

<-- this is the muffins i made! it looked weird right? bcos of the choco chips sticking out everywhere! man. i put too much chocolate chips!

And the big balloon is the one near bugis. xD looked super big larhs!

Ok. The balloon trip is kinda nice. The air up there seemed to be fresher and cooler.
everything looked super tiny. There are so many cars in Singapore! Now i know whats with the ERP and everything.BECAUSE THERE ARE UNCOUNTABLE CARS! The thing looked awesome! Really! How i wish i could stay up there and not go down. The going up&down process made me felt nauseous.

After the DHL balloon ride came the night safari tram ride.
it had been like 8-10years that i've not stepped into mandai area.I was tired though. xD HmmHmmHmm. All the night creatures are so GREAT! They were gorgeous,beautiful,lovable and... i simply cant think of any words to use to describe those awesome animals. They are really very very likable. I would really want to go close to them. Im now more determined to study harder and work to my goal as a veterinarian. And i'll work in the zoo. Be is as a vet or a zoo keeper.
The ride was really great. But some stupid people used flash lights to capture the images of the animals when they are told not to. IT WAS IRRITATING. OH~ MY AUNT WAS PISSED.

Right. After the cool tram ride. We rushed to the last show of the day. That woman on the platform really inspire me. She's really cool. The way she talks, the way she introduces the cute lovable animals, the way she entertained the crowd. She's another successful woman is the zoo.

Looking at the animals really calmed me down alot. And i found this passion i had all along in my heart. It was all released out at that very moment. I want to go back there again. I hope i'll be attach to one of the animals in the zoo if i work there. cos there will be a very strong bond between both the animal and i.

Ya. That ends my saturday.

My today.

Woke up a lil late today. Around 10+. Went outta house at around 12+ to Toapayoh. Ate KFC, bought ingredients for muffins! hersey choc is really expensive! But they taste great! Its around 7bucks for one packet. A small one.

i baked around 24-30 muffins. But im left with a pathetic 5!!!
IM SERIOUSLY SAD AND PISSED. But i could do nothing.
ok. The first batch of muffin was kinda like wet inside. But its still nice and edible!
My grandmother claimed that it was a FAIL for the muffins.
So, the fucking monsters from some FOREIGN country gobbled down the 15 muffins i baked! And i only ate one! If it was a fail for those muffins, why would they eat up the whole tray and say its yummy. I HATE THOSE FUCKING MORONS! THEY ARE SUCH CHEAPOs AND THOSE BITCH SUCKED! THEY DIN EVEN THANK ME! they took me/my muffins for granted! I SHOULD HAVE ADD SOMETHINGS INSIDE TO MAKE THEM SHIT ALL DAY LONG! STUPID SUCKERS! THE MUFFINS AINT FOR YOU MONSTERS!

After that, i baked another 13. My grandmother,grandfather,maid and siying took one each. So im left with 9. And i intended to have it for breakfast&lunch tmr to save $$$
i kept 4 for myself and 5 for him. But my grandfather came in and asked for 4 more muffins because he's going on a golf trip tmr. ): i felt so sad. Its left with a pathetic 5 now. Im gonna give him all five and im not going to eat tmr. I wont want to spend the money. cos i've spend quite a lot today. Thanks to the chocolate chips,milk and US potatoes. ): im totally broke.

I know i should not complain that they took my muffins. But pls. Not after i have no more ingredients to bake another batch alright? sigh. i feel ruin now ): im a such a loser. i even complain about my family members. KILL ME!

day4o.
still loving.still waiting.still hurt, somehow.

Hey. Listen. i know that somethings need time to be back like how they are.
But it seems like there isnt a slightest change. I hope that this is just me being paranoid. But still. Im afraid. sigh. im sorry. im only left with 5muffins for you. I'll bake more next time round. sorry dearlykins. I love you.
My one&only.

JIAXIN,
I KNOW I'VE BEEN NEGLECTING YOU! DONT WORRY GIRL, I LOVEYOU!

sa-tur-day

im begining to feel uneasy yet again.
damn. that feeling suck.
why?
i dont know why is this all happening.
promises? broken or fulfil? up to you already then.
is just seemed like whatever i did or think is all wrong.
i just cant help to be worries lurhs.
if you cant accept that i really dont know what to do.
if not, take a knife. Kill me then.

day39.
still loving,still waiting,still hurt

LOVES.
shari

when shari goes dingdingding

dingdingding. -_-
super tired-ed >.< :D

things really does happen dont they?
Maybe you'll still think that im silly.
But im i puttng you in a spot infront of your friends?
I dont know too.
I just believe what you told me.
i dont wan to find out anything more.
is useless.


thank you for being willing to tell me that.
i know that you would do it.
and when i can sense that you did a weee bit,
i'll fulfil my promise and be happy.
becos i really will
i know things will change for the better.
i love you.
takkaires love. jy.

day38.
still loving...still waiting.
loves.

i know that "it" had been bothering you and cause you headache.
sorry love.

you told me to follow my heart.
and im going to follow.
my heart's following you...

the attack of the bitch. YET AGAIN.

HAHA. xD
awwww. i din expect bitches to tag me once i recovered the tagbox.
ha ha ha.
What do you call a person who :
1. Pretend to be kind to you, called you and talked some fucked up shit you for an hr or so,claimed to be so nice. Sent you a sms in the middle of night barking like a bitch? Ya. Bitch (:

2. Goes around calling ppl close name when that person has no fucking business to do with her.Not to forget that THAT PERSON CLAIMS to love her boyfriend. -_-

3. Went around feeling guilty and suspicious and spammed ppl's blog.

4. Kaobeikaobu to so many ppl that an unknown person tagged her.

HAHA. i bet the clever ppl sure know how to guess right (:

A) Bitch
B) Whore
C) Slut
D) All of the above mentioned :D

haha.
i guess ignoring that person will be the best thing to do eh?
i needa study! Not entertain useless bitches/whores/whatever whom does not study.
HA HA HA HA HA

it just aint worth my 0.000000001joules of energy to reply that whatever.
ok. i'll name that whatever "IT"
(: wont spoil the image of human beings.

:D ok "IT", you can spam,tag whatever you like.
Nobody will give a fuck about you.
maybe you're boyfriend(S) will.
err. I dont know how "IT" get BOYFRIENDS.
is like kinda impossible -_-
HAHA. enough. TAKKAIRES "IT"

MATHS was shit today.
fell asleep within 3-5mins.
catching up with mutiple revision now.

MotherTongue paper tmr.
i'll feel very weird la. See the whole class bring dictionary.
*&^%$#@
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

money!!! hah.

eeeeyer...
ATTACK OF THE BITCH -_-

this thing reminds me of how a PREVIOUS friend of mine did to me.
ya. And it turned off the willingness to help. shit.

ya.
Im to blame that whores came to attack.
HAH. (((:
tell me that im immature la k.

loves,
shari.

day37
still loving. still waiting.
getting more hurt day by day eh?
is like on and off.
Fuck that feeling.
It suck like how "IT" suck (:

TATA

bouncybouncy smacksmack

New new law from sharichong.
DO NOT retaliate when ppl agitate you
becos it may look as though as you're dumb.
And DO NOT SPAM!
i repeat. DO NOT SPAM
you'll look like a stupid moron.
A slut maybe. if that person whom you spammed is a slut.

TAKKAIRES FRIENDS.
no wait. those whom read my blogs might not be my friends.
ok. TAKKAIRES THOSE WHO ARE MY REAL FRIENDS (:

oh! SPAMMING STRIKES!

blog war : spammings strikes :DDD
alert alert! spamming is the trend again.
haha. hello, im shariChong, receptionist for the spamming company.
:D call this hotline when you're spammed.With nonsense,lies,being accused.
9***29**
HAHAHA.
... lame right? (:

HAHA.
i knew that some of my friends tagged some ppl after reading my blog.
Or maybe is others whom knew something about something.
(: or maybe saw some ppl doing somethings.
so spamming starts. OH! SPAM!

read [older messages] for spam war.
look. its SPAM war. not SPERM war.
HAHA xD some uneducation act smart ppl would think that way. -_-
YA.
EXACTLY! -_-
k la. im going to stop saying before ppl
KAOBEIKAOBU to others and cry looking for the bf. Oops.
:DDD
woooooo...
spamming on my tagboard fun arhs? HAHA.

mugged bio and chinese today.
chinese...YES. chinese (: hah. did lotsa compre. TEN-YR series helps.

"Ahem" *clears throat.

Being in a sec3Express stream,
I ought to study hard and dont bother about ppl's stuff.
especially when i need to study. I dont have the time to "talk" to ppl.
(: haha. anyways. i need to pass well this year.
If not, next yr's gonna kill me.
i dont want to be like the graduating peeps now.
i want to be fully prepared.

okok
stayed in sch till around 5.45pm.
studied and listened to musics.
>_- winks
HAHAHAHAHA.

err...errr...errr...

Ya. thats about it. GONNA WORK HARD!
I DONT WAN TO SPEND 5YEARS IN SCH & GET LAUGHED AT!

love, you're irreplaceable...
Although at times both of us are frustrated about things/people who bothered you,irritates you or whatsoever.
we both know that we love each other deep down in our hearts.
is understoodable yea? becos some ppl just fails to use his/her words to make me feel bad. But sometimes when im really upset, i hope that you'll be there. takkaires love,
i love you. more than others regardless of being related or UNRELATED to you...AND/OR
maybe some whom are not suppose to be loving you...when they claimed that they love their love ones (:
- shari.

day36.
still loving still waiting.
i love my love.
irreplaceable you...

5.10.07.
wait for the surprise !
i hope you got what i mean in the letter xD
I LOVE YOU.
more than anyone else.

LOVES,
shari

(: oh. im found guilty

sorry peeps!
previous post deleted due to ppl's dislike.
(: i dont have anything to say already.
Whatever is say ppl not happy.

BYE.
oh.
AND DONT SPAM PPL LA HOR.

day35.
loving,waiting.

whatever to those who spammed la.
make ppl think that is me only.
Happy liao la. Ppl come suspect me.
is not as if that thing only 3 of us know.
ppl got eyes see one right?

if you are reading. leave me your link.
I am very curious to take a look at that spammed blog of yours.
TAKKAIRES

happy birthday

NOT FORGETTING ABOUT ASHLEY CHUA SI LI.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

DOUBLE BLOW

My heart broke again&again.
But you fixed it again&again.
): Is all my fault.
Im sorry if i've wronged you.
im sorry.
Im feeling weak,useless,worthless
Torn,shattered,down.
Anymore? ))):
what can i do to make things like b4?

loves,
sharichongdingdong,isnt dingdong anymore.im just wrecked.

day34.
still loving.still waiting.
hurt.upset.
But i cant do anything.

KILL ME.

I CANT TRUST MYSELF ANYMORE.

I cant trust myself nor anyone except you now.
but everything just hurt me alot.
It aint the same. It just isnt.
You. Everything i found out, there is a reason behind it.
Im not going to get angry or whatsoever.
Im tired of being angry and fighting for my rights.
i'll just do whatever that please you and keep quiet.
You knew that she scolded me.
Did you felt heartbroken when i told you that how she scolded me?
I felt inferior and useless.

Did i do so much wrong that you have to treat me like this now?
Do i even deserve all this.
Are you trying to get back at me?
It hurt. It seriously does.

in the past :
when i cry while talking to you. you will sound concern and confort me with all the care and love.
when we argue.you will give in and make me happy.
when i do something which you think is wrong.you forgive and forget.
you were such a nice guy.

now :
when i cry while talking to you.you still joke with your friend,you get angry at me cos im crying.
when we argue.Is all my fault and im the bitch.
when i do something which you think is wrong.I am really wrong and deserve no care,no love.And is all my punishment.

You told me you treated me like that in the past cos you love me and you were dumb enough to let me climb onto your head.

So now?Dont you love me anymore?
Or you became smarter and tries to get back at me now.
because i've been such a bitch in the past.
And you dont believe that i wont repeat the past.
you wanted the trust but you aint giving any...
It seriously hurt me.
Today was such a wonderful day.
But it ended like fuck when im nosey.
im sorry.

what do i want?
I want the old you.
Not the one who changed and give sacarstic remarks ):
And goes out with friends ):
You tell me to get friends to accompany me.
But when everyone left me then you tell me this.
What am i expected to do?
]: im such a failure, disappointment.
I JUST WANT THE OLD YOU TO BE BACK.
can you be back?
10yrs?20yrs?
I cant take anymore of this anymore.
I just felt weak. Im not strong anymore
Im longer debating.
add times to waiting.
i had enough with you and my past.
where'd you go? i miss you so.
seems like it had forever.
since you've been gone.
pls come back home...

I just wish that you would forget about my mistake & i'll do the same.
Go back to the way we used to be.
The happily ever after couple everyone see.
i WISH. but can i? is up to you.
PLEASE BE BACK.
You know how much i need you.
You know how much i love you.
You just dont get it dont you?
You just kept thinking that i'd be the bitch once you're gd to me.
Why dont you give me the chance to see how will things work with a better me.
And give yourself a chance to prove that you din love the wrong person.
You can decide so many things. But you chose to leave it there to rot and for me to be hurt.
I seriously will break down if things dont get better.

I find that im super dumb.
it took me 1/2 an hour to figure out the three easy formula of trigonometry.
i regretted not studying hard enough.
Everything's coming towards me now.
i'd definitely want to score and A1 for my chinese and humans.
that is 2As. others.i would just wan to pass all or at least get a C6.
i wouldn't wan to fail any.
But i'd bound to fail maths&bio.
Im such a dumb shit. I deserve death.

DAMN.SHARICHONG IS THE STUPIDEST WOMAN IN THE WHOLE FREAKING UNIVERSE!

day33.
still loving...still waiting...

WHY IS IT ALWAYS HAPPENING?

It has been two days since i updated my post.

I was busy, upset and have no energy to type.

Sigh... ]: i dont know what i should or need to do.

FRIDAY.
I did math for awhile after school.
finally i understand what is sin,cos & tangent.
HAHA. (: stupid right?

head off to IKEA after that.
ate hotDogs.
Freaking cheap larhs.
$1.70 for a hotDog&Drink.
(((: cheapo arhs me.

It just puzzle me alot. ):
Friends,friends,friends.
))): freaking irritating.
i cant walk fast my fault arhs? ):
))): sigh. Must you go out and return home late in the night everytime?
You can say you will worry bout me.
But have you ever thought that i would be worried too?
sigh. ): sigh sigh sigh sigh.
)): My fault la my fault.

SATURDAY

WHATEVER.
i've been trying and trying so hard.
But i only get disappointment.
It just hit me so hard that i might explode.
And when i explode.
Is totally MY fault again.
How can this happen?
It is totally different from how you used to treat me
You wanted me to be happy. But you do things to make me sad.
What do you take me for? ):
You dont reply my SMSes.
You dont answer my call.
Right. all my fault.
Everytime you answer the call,
"oh.sorry i dint hear the phone ringing.Btw,im at bedok/pulauUbin/orchard."
How do you expect me to react?
when you tell me that you're going to stay at home?
and did not even inform me when you're going.
AND. you want me to tell you where ever i go if not you'll blow your top and start scolding vulgarities right?
i dont know. It seriously hurt me alot.
is different.it seriously is.
everything.
im expected to be like a dog,abide whatever you said,
if not you'll get angry. when im upset, you'll scold me.
"what the fuck im trying to do"
"chao cheebai"
"slut"
fun scolding me?
then why ask me why am i so upset.
where is the loving,caring you.
YA.blame it on me again.
i was the one in wrong and deserve all this punishment.
im the bitch again right.
ya. i suck.
you're the great one.
im so so so sorry then.

day32.
still loving,still waiting,still upset,still hurt.

why all these when we can love each other.
why quarrels,vulgarities when is unnecessary.
why? cos im the bitch?the whore?the slut?
ya. you're the great.

what you looking at? KAYPO arhs???

i rather not to find out

i rather not find out anything and just be fooled like a dumb ass.
It just hurt me alot when i see things.
perhaps, im that childish.
i dont know.

it all happened like this.but when i tot im gonna be happy,i saw something that hit me down right smack into hell.

i rather not to find out

WOULD YOU MIND KILL THE IRRITATING FEELING?

I cant absorb anything Mrs.Ling's talking about.
that is why i often sleep in her class. And is damn irritating hearing her voice ): My ear drum is going to burst sooner or later. -_-

I found back the feeling of doing accounts.
Im sorry Mr.Goh that I did not perform up to my standard last term.
But im really working very hard to catch up with what i dont understand.
So, i did my Trading,Profit&loss accounts today.
With a little help from daryl.

It had been almost a year that i sat beside Daryl for accounts.
He had been helping me alot.
Although he often bully me ))): haha
Is ok. :DDD He helped.

I did my physic by myself (:
haha. Bio was noisy as usual...
:DDD lungs,diaphragm,trachea,bronchus,bronchioles.
All the terms are getting onto my nerves.

After school, went to Delifrance to study biology with siLi.
(: I did study alright.I made notes and everything.
Went home after that. hmm.

i guess this is another rare day that he cant accompany me home.
The days he can send me home are getting lesser and lesser day by day.
I hope that im sick again.
That way, he would send me home everyday.
))):
God, can you make me sick again?
yea. love sick.
Why dont doctors give MCs for love sick,friend sick?
SIGH!

It really saddens to me know that you're outside.
Is like i dont have the sense of security. ]:
damn ))): im so selfish and noisy and irritating.
Maybe is time for me to shut the fuck up and act like nerd.
HA.ANYONE INTERESTED IN A FREAKING MUTE NERD!?
i doubt so. ]:
sigh.

dear friend,
i noticed that you've found new friend huh.Maybe that will make you feel better.Im glad to know that you're doing fine now.But i just miss those times,
dont you?sigh.prawn noodles,fried hotDogs,coke,sakae,ramen.

I LOVE YOU DEAREST!

loves,
sharichong, who's a bit Dingdong.

day30,
still loving...still waiting...

sharichongstilllovetheonessheloves.jiaxinxin,robin.danielandeveryone!muacks.

bitchFuck

我们有没有在一起。nice one.what a way to take away my rights.

!@#$%^&*@#$%^&@#$%^&

You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi.

PE.
ha ha ha. Mr.Han
Sigh...Another tall freak to add to my TALL PPL list.
Now, Daryl lost his 1st position in my list.
Bcos that Mr.Han is i think er...1 or 2 cM taller than him
So, that made daryl second. Sorry Daryl!
Ok. He knows how to play basic volleyball yet he asked me to teach him
crap~
He taught Livia,Amirah&Chunny.
Played serving in the last few mins of the period.
YEAH! Both livia&Qixian can serve after i've taught them.
But Chunny(chunheng) cant when Mr.Han taught him! xD
Look who's the pro MAN! chey. noob.
Daryl serve 2balls which went OUT! haha.
i served 3balls and all went right smack in the middle of the court!
PRO RIGHT!

Slept for 3periods during English cos the teacher aint teaching much.

We had a talk on "Making $ense of MONEY."
i forgot the name of the speaker.
He's humourous though xD
He's 63yearsOld
Came from Canada, stayed in Singapore for 6years.
Have 38years of teaching experience.
haha. fun xD

Joked with Jeffery and Livia after escorting that guy out.
Hmm. MOS burger sell Roti Prata?
HAHAHAH xD
hmm. damn. so bored

Went out with Ashley the boob.
she went off first.leaving me alone.

I dont know why am i so dumb.
Cross the road also must cry.
Stupid right!
too bad larhs. stupid means stupid.
Whats more?
Stupid and Selfish.
dont know how to think for the others.
Only know how to think for myself and tries to tie down someone whom doesnt want to have anything to do with me that will be known to his so-called Friends.sigh.
Second time. i waited and waited. waited in the park.waited at bus-stop.
waited near your hse.
Never mind. You are out with your friends what.
What can i do?
Selfish Bitch.

HAH.
I got 7 mosquito bites.
Damn, the park is infested with mozzies
sigh. stupid.
Alright... I fell down from the dont-know-what-is-it-call thing.
bcos he was calling and i wanted to scoop my phone out.
i lost balance and fell.
Oh dear. my back hurts now. ))):
Its too painful. so i head back home.
sigh. is freaking pain now ):
i know that you called.
but my phone's batt was flat&i fell.
i did reply you. i replied twice.
But you din call back or what.
i guess that you're angry huh?
yea.My wrong.

Sigh. i guess i have to take some panadols.
cos it really hurts.
damn. so stupid of me.
how i wish he'd know that i hurt my back.
hah. he wont know i think.
i doubt he even want to talk to me now.
cos im so selfish right.
damn. fucking selfishness.
cos friends are more worth to meet.
at least they dont make you angry right?
ya.
ok. i know. Im selfish and have a bad temper.
sorry then.
my fault.

loves,
sharichongdingdong.

day29.
still loving...still waiting.
But im utterly torn.

tuesdayblue.

dingdongdingdong.
dongdingdingdong...
sch as super ultra usual larhs.
except that we had 2 test in a row.
after Mother Tongue was Geography.
Mrs teo is a total piece of crap.
HAHA. she talk no sense! like wth~
praising herself so INDIRECTLY.

Whatever larhs hor... xD
ian haven call me to get his Chinese Test McQ answer.
i think i'll fall asleep when he calls... xD
hehe. Im sooooo helpful!
but the other 3 TENGTENGs still bullies me ):

LIVE EARTH!!!

Ms ngiam was gd today. (:
very pleased with her performance. (((:
haha. it should be the other way round rite...

met ron and him after sch today.
damn. the trip wasnt ENJOYABLE AT ALL ))):
i hate my legs! they are so SHORT&USELESS!

And im supposed to follow them when they're walking so fast.

I felt like a dog. ): i din feel happy. but who know?

they might just think that im just being immatured and kicking up a big fuss.

but hey! im not. is just damn fucking frustrating can?

im trying to follow you guys and you guys kept walking so fast without even looking back.

IM NOT A DOG ALRIGHT!!??

DAMN. blame it on myself. dumb personality rite~!

sigh.Fine. ate seoul garden.

damn. the soup base SUCK!

what KIMCHI SOUP?!

it water with sugar larhs.

-_- shouldn't have chose that...

ARGHS!

so stupid of me.

ate so much till i can skip meals for @#$%^&*( days.

AHAHAH

dingdong shit.

sighsigh.

NOW!

WHICH MORONIC GREAT- MAN SAID THAT :

LOVERS NEED NOT SEE EACH OTHER EVERYDAY?!

fucking moronic guy who influence MY him.

-_- though im still single. i think so. ITS COMPLICATED!

stupid me. CUCKOOCUCKOO!

damn it.

dont know which fucking moron said that.

miss that person of course mus see right!?

cannot arhs?

miss you also wrong. ):

everything i do is wrong.

MIGHT AS WELL SAY THAT MY MUM'S FAULT!

COS SHE GAVE BIRTH TO ME.

)))': sigh...

what can i do to make you happy?

what can i do to make you understand?

my bad then. cos i've been such a B-I-T-C-H

right~?

my wrong.

too bad.

im still loving you baby.

day 28

still loving...still waiting...

sometimes i say to myself.

stop being such a BITCH and do the right things.

but things ALWAYS end up the other way i wanted it to ))):

LOVES,

SHARICHONGDINGDONG

know what?

i still love jiaxinxin,robin,daniel&co.

and damn. im losing them soon.nvm

as long as i still take them as BESTfriends.

im sure that they will understand.

-_-

dad.
Again...you hurt me like you've once did last month.
Do you have to do this again and again?
i might just run away from you.
maybe is my bad to drink RIBENA "early" in the morning at around 9-10+
But do you have to embarass me by shouting straight into my face infront of so many ppl?
For my health huh???
how funny. you smoke at home.drink in the coffee shop...
how healthy is that? RIGHT~
im always doing the wrong thing.
I only hang around after school and do everything except for studying?
Ya. whatever alright.WHATEVER.
im sure that if i'd ever leave you one day,
You'll be extremely happy right?
one person's health lesser to worry about.
more money for your PRECIOUS,SMART,OBEDIENT son.
To me, it seems as though as im the trouble-maker.
the one whom always spends your money.
i practically deserves no praising and stuffs right?
i cant work during the hols.
even if i did, i cant spend the money i've earned
what? you give me $50 out of the $400 i've earned.
AND YOU CLAIMED THAT IT WAS ALOT!!!
what kind of crap is that.
ya. im that irresponsible spoiled brat.
with a miserable amount of $6 per day
i rather go to work everyday and use my own money
just Becos you give me $6 per day, you think you can even manipulate my thinkings.
): i tried not to compare myself with my friends.
but is way too ridiculous.
the average amt of money my friends get is $8-$10
): if you say that is your work and is bcos of our fianicial prob.
i understand. But you dont even let me work.
what exactly do you want?
you want a stressed up daughter?
me to be depresed?
kill myself?
IS ALL UP TO YOU DAD.
YOU!

I FEEL FREAKING UNWANTED.YOU MADE ME FEEL THIS WAY DAD. YOU.


I GOT A SUDDEN URGE TO EAT SEOULGARDEN -_-

LOVES,
SHARICHONGDINGDONG.
KILL ME IF YOU DONT WANT ME DAD.

DAY27
STILL LOVING...STILL WAITING

TELL ME

IT HAD ALWAYS BEEN BOTHERING ME.
WHATS WITH THE HOT&COLD FEELINGS FOR!?
FUN? ITS NOT FUN AT ALL. I COULD HAVE BEEN DIED.
YOU JUST TORE ME TOTALLY APART TODAY.
IT HURT LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS.

it isnt that gd anymore

i dont know.
IM GETTING FOUR TIMES THE PRESSURE
SOMEHOW,I JUST SEEM TO STAY CALM AND DEAL WITH IT. I MIGHT JUST DIE.
i just dont feel as gd anymore.
its all coming at one go.
it might just kill me.
all the hope put on me.
i tried not to look down on myself at all.
i just couldnt.
i really that someone again...
shari isnt as strong as she seems to be.
i know that i disappoint many ppl
in every other aspect.
everything came just too suddenly.
kill me.

eheh.say hello to the...TENGTENGclub.
(: want act but cant sia. -_- sad-ded...
(leader)
tengteng1 : ian
(Ast.leader)
tengteng2 : kingsley
(secretary)
tengteng3 : SHARICHONGDINGDONG
(whacker)
tengteng4 : Evelyn

haha. :] enough of it. gotta train our new member (: hahaha

friday...

sch's as usual...

only that i went for the presentation of that two TENGTENG pilots.

sigh. went for meeting&off to Angeline's crib.

i sat in the trolley again...

crazy? i dont know. maybe?

i waited for 4hrs.

just wanting to see you...

but... ):

i said see...not meet. why???

the purpose of me not going home that early is bcos that i knew that i cant go out too late. i waited and waited.

you got angry. what am i suppose to do?

i doubt you know how painful it is...

you said you will be back home in the afternoon.

but you didnt i supposed...

is pulauUbin we're talking about.

not orchard.

maybe you just dont understand.

im tired of pretending to smile and laugh like a stupid crazy woman.

why? :[ it really hurt me to know that you dont have the intention to see me at all. today doesnt seem like a very gd day.

it totally sucked. 14. it was meant to be a gd day. a day with plenty of memories, whatever.who cares about it? Do you? will you?

what you meant by studying was to go out everyday with your friends?

): im sorry then. it seems like im the one making things go haywire.

maybe it really is me.

see. is me. again,yet again. sigh.

there isnt anytime that i dont make mistake isnt it?

sorry...

to other ppl, they might think, who am i to say these things?

im the one who hurt him first.

ya. im the one.

why all the gd things i've done go?

it always end up in the dustbin...

like today. whatever.

handmade things always touches ppl's heart?

i doubt so. it always goes into the bin.

oh~ is my fault for not telling you again? ))):

3rd time. i've waited for 4hours, made something for you.

you din show up ultimately...

i threw it away.

dont ask why.

if the person's not there, no matter what you've did to him,

the friends are still more impt eh?

can travel so far to accompany friends but not me.

it all shows.sigh.

loves,

shari...

if you had a car crash, you can go to the hospital to seek treatment.

but where do you go when your heart crashed? ))):

sigh...

day24.

still waiting...still loving...

dang...

14.
indeed. number 14 had been in my life for quite a moment.
everything had to do with 14...
my first ever jersey, no.14.
my love,
if you divide my index no. by 2. it'll be 14.
and the day my dearestFriend and i ...
is also on the 14. now then i realise it.
sigh.
tmr, it will be another 14.
a new start? memories? precious tots...
i dont know too.
it had been such a bad semester. ))):
i really hope things will get better.
maybe... all the best...
loves,
ShariChongDingDong.
always look on the bright side of life? i doubt so.
the brightest side of my life seems very dark too.

day23...
still waiting...still loving...

loves.

was cleaning xD damn.look so weird.-_-im a weirdo.hahahaha

i got this funny expression on my face.

i decided not to show it AT ALL.

(: is kinda high. i might just drop and DIE!!!haha.

i was happyily cleaning and laughing at ppl below me ^_^

damn.this model is sure a hunk! it has chest muscles!leg muscles! & it has a ...*ahem* cos i unzip the pants! ooopsy! super tired tired tired eh~

one last photo (: i look cuckoo i know. -_- i had to. i love to :]hahaahahahahah.look at jianbao.i saw him slacking. HA HA HA.

im too tired to say anything. hmmm. went to novena today. thats about it. is like errr...bored larhs! luckily there's someone to accompany me :] is just that some things just kept bothering me and i cant seem to put it down. sigh. i dont know too.is like something impt's missing. and you feel super uncomfortable without it.Am i too dependent?or am i suppose to stand on my own feet like what had been told...do you really want things to be like this? ): i dont.alrite.just dont stress yourself too much.you tend to do so when you're nervous.gd luck. all the best my friend.it had been a long time since we've talked. ): loves,shari.

i gotta end my post here and go to bed. -_-

it seems like slping is the only way to escape reality.

loves,

sharichong.

day22...

still waiting.still loving.

dearfriend...

TIRED!!!

damn. im freaking tired!!!
my body's aching like shit. -_- haha...
the first thing that greeted the moment i alight bus was...
SUPER HEAVY RAIN!!! wth~
walked up the bridge with my left side of my body semi drenched...
HAHA.how fun.the shelter of the bridge doesnt seem to serve any purpose during heavy rainy days AT ALL!!!
had to walk from the end of the bridge to the side gate WITHOUT any shelter or umbrella shit. (: so TA-DA...super drenched (((: and it was cold. (: you think is fun?
bang your head against the wall.is way much funnier to do so (:
had this damn headache since bio class. -_- both side my head.
*roll eyes*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
ok. so class go as how it goes normally... (:
i did my maths hmwrk (:
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BAND,STOREROOM CLEANING!!!
HO HO HO.
IT WAS SUPER FUN!
i'll upload the photos once i get it from hweehwee (((:
haha.
ok. the storerm seriously has millions of nonsense...
duh~ is the stooorreeeeRoom (: ho ho ho
we emptied the storeroom... (:
man~ the room is kinda big... i can jump,dance,roll inside...
haha. and it was DUSTY...!!!
I CLIMBED UP THE CABINETS!!!
i felt like a mouse!!! and everything seems to be smaller.
xD so, i climbed and clean and sweep and mop (:
haha. i hid inside one of the cabinet. xP cos i wanted to clean the interior... x(
but dont know who go close the cabinet...IT WAS PITCH DARK!
damn. hahahahaahahahahahhahaa
super tired. and i wasnt feeling well xD
i was having this freaking headache! -_- nevertheless, i tried to help!
by climbing,cleaning,moping,sweeping,carrying,arranging (:
did quite alot FOR THE ROOM!
i was super happy with the spacious room (: yeahyeah (:
HAHA. i found a few tiny cuts on my leg. haha aww.
nvm (: though is was tiring but is fun&fruitful!
thank you Mr.Jasen for taking out the time to help us! the room is so nice now.
& of cos rebecca!THANK YOU.
thank you for coming down and helping too! sorry for whatever happen.
pls takkaire of yourself and be alrite. thanks.
FOR THE CHOCS AND SWEETS TOO!!! IS FROM AUSTRIALIA!
(: STARBURST! chewier... (((:
loves...

thankyou YOU for sending me back.though you din alight with me ))):
sigh.but i wasnt feeling well today. ))): and you talked to that bunch of girls knowing that im waiting and am not feeling well.sigh...

day21
still waiting...still loving...

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): dearfriend.
pls be back will you?
is so empty without you ))):

sigh...

loves,
sharichongDingdong.
bye,
im off to bed. sooooooooooo t-i-r-e-d.

i love you.miss you.want you.