Monday, March 31, 2008

]: My arm is proudly injured a g a i n.
I dropped my mace TWICE today. ): Damn sadded. SUPER ULTRA SADDED LURHS! >.<
I felt damn freaking nervous when I faced the whole canteen and the whole bunch of basketball girls.
I didnt know what happened but I just stoned and dropped my mace )':

ARGH! Im feeling so messy now. Everything's NOT in place and I cant do anything about it! I slept at 2+,3am this morning, woke up at 6am. 3hrs of slp for 14 working hours! So poor thing arhs. I mental weak arhs me. :l Im feeling so empty and so incomplete. Sigh. I miss you. I REALLY MISS YOU SO.

Alright, time to get some sleep now. DEAD TIRED.

BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE.
I NEED SOME MORAL SUPPORT):
LOVES,
SHARI

Friday, March 28, 2008

SIAN. Napfa test today. :l My body was already aching since the start of the week. Well, no excuses... Still have to take test and die die pass if not i'll get haunted by ALL pe teachers. B O R I N G!!! Stupid body, stupid knee, stupid napfa.

I was close to getting an A for shuttle run lurhs! o.3sec faster and 5points! BINGO.
Should i forgo the 2.4km run and fail the whole thing or run the 2.4km and get injured leg. -_-
SHIT. I hate physical fitness test...I must be enthu then only that I can do well. Adding on to it, there is no prize if you get a gold. Only one pathetic pin and a cert. :l

))): I dont know why but I just keep feeling very stressful today. Its like suddenly... After Mrs Foo handed us the test paper to do. My mind went totally blank! ): I did some trigo ytd night but what came out was totally alienic...I immediately felt that my tears were bursting out... DAMN, WHY IS MY LIFE LIKE THIS. ): For the whole afternoon, I just felt like crying. But I didnt. I DID NOT! I DID NOT!!!

Now i realised that how much I miss him. I was sleeping in socialstudies class today cos there was no correction for me to do...And I dreamed of him...): I cant do anything about it, can I? ): ARGH! I FEEL SO IRRITATED LURHS!!! sad.

BYE,
LOVEs,
SHARICHONG

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Did my presentation today, it suck. I panicked and shivered throughout the whole 5min.
My hands turned icy cold and I think I blabbered alot of nonsense.
Damn. I think that Im going to fail it. ]:

NAPFA test tomorrow. Oh well. Im so tired to do so. My thigh is aching... -_-
WOOTS.
I love you.


BYEEEE,
SHARICHONG.

MUACKS.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

I really cant help it but feel damn useless lurhs... :l
Poor little thumb is injured, it bled underneath my thumb nail.
YES it hurts, if you're wondering. It does... :D

Well, lessons,test,band practice,celebration,dinner,cabbed,home.

YAY, SHARI'S GETTING A NEW MACE. WOOTS.
THANK YOU MR.LIM.
*although I cant bring it with me after I graduate but Im still happy.*

BYE.

I have to get use to stuffs... :D

LOVES,
SHARISHARISHARISHARI

Monday, March 24, 2008

REHEARSAL ON THIS THURS.
): SUPER SCARED...

I pray hard that I dont whack my own face again and I WONT DROP my mace.
May ALL gods bless SHARICHONG.

): ULTRA STRESSED.
NO ONE TO RELIEVE ME STRESS.
My left cheek is swollen now... ICY ICY...
:D

BYE!
LOVES,
SHARICHONG...

Sunday, March 23, 2008

SHARI CHONG, deleted from MBLT's life.
I think Im outta his whole life now... Or maybe from 18.3.08...
I should carry on and forget about the whole lovey dovey stuff.
SHIT, I HATE MY LIFE AGAIN.OH WHY
Sunday morning... I feel bored. I dont feel as pretty, as witty and as gay.
Woke up at 12.55am this morning as got angry. :l I really need some anger management.
I just cant control my temper. ): And YOU, please take care of yourself CAN?!?!?!
How old already still cannot think and differentiate things which are worthy or not. :/
SIAO ARHS!

Im going for tuition soon... ): Im getting bored going for tuition.
SYF's approaching soon, Im scared... )':
April 11th - Commendation day, Final rehearsal.
April 12th - SYF. My big day.

My face still hurts. I cant smile or laugh. ))):
I need a kiss on my cheek. :P hahaha.
Alright. Its 11.11am now.
BYE

Saturday, March 22, 2008

When my tears were at the verge on dripping onto my floor just now,
I forced myself to pick-up the television controller,
pressed the little red button and switched on to channel 19, AXN.
Anger managment just started and I got a few good laughs watching it.
I suddenly felt better, like instantly, I felt better. (:

I feel pretty, witty and gay...
I feel stunning...

Yea, that was a part of the song that was supposed to calm people down.
I guess I really need some anger management. I go around giving people black face,get emo,scolds vulgarities and all when Im angry. Bad habits.

NO VULGAR LANGUAGE FROM NOW ON. SLAP MY FACE HARD IF YOU HEAR MY SCOLDING, MUMBLING OR SAYING VULGARITIES.

Yea. So much for a raining late afternoon.
So many things happened recently...
vexed.

(:):
GREAT!!! :D
I've got a recovering right arm...And a blue black on my left cheek.
haha. My face is sure in pain now. P A I N.
I wonder how much force was used... :l I spinned my mace so fast that it went crazy and it hit my face. L O S E R!!!

My left cheek bone is in pain now... ))): Ouch.
people might think that I just came back from a fight. HAHA!
Yea. Back from the most AWESOME saturday practice!!! :D:D:D
Did a few run through today, gotta brush up and shorten the timing.
I hope that it doesnt rain in the next few practices.
AND AND AND, I still have my stage fright.
))):
IM A LOUSY DRUM MAJOR!

BYE,
SHARICHONG.

p/s : I love you

Friday, March 21, 2008

I find myself missing you even more.
Wanting to know that if you are doing fine and everything.
I hope that you are but I hope that you are not.
If you're ok by yourself, it just simply meant that there's no difference whether if Im by your side or not. At the same time, I wish that you are ok bcos Im worried. ]:

The leg of the little teddy you gave me dropped off ):
Little teddy is once again handicap. Is the one with you still hanging on your wallet?
I hope so. ):

Everything I do reminds me of you.
The smell of your jacket accompanied me to bed every night.
I still use your phone, hoping that one day you'll drop my a msg.
But it all sounded so impossible. :l

Im still here...
ily.
1.12.07 - 18.3.08
whenever I feel vibrations from my phone.
I grab it and wish that it will be you.
But many times, its not you.
the last msg I received from you was up-setting.
I wish that the next wont be.
I tell myself everyday, I AM STRONG, I WOULD BE ABLE TO MOVE ON.
But everyday, I just get weaker and weaker. Im stuck here.
Someone, bring me an anti-clockwise watch. I want to turn things back to how they are and I'll promise to SHUT UP to prevent you from leaving. I cant. Take care my love. jiayou for your SYF.

Ok, its GOODFRIDAY today. I woke up at around eleven and am still lying on my bed. Msn-ing and doing my chinese homework. A1 for chinese o'lvl. YOU GO GIRL!!! :D

Its time for me to get real, see the truth and put on my mask.
I realised that being myself in this kind of enviroment will only do bad to myself.
BYE.

SHARICHONG

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

GREAT DAY, STUPID EVENTS

Another day of my miserable life. :l
School's fine, weather's fine. Everything seemed so good.
2free periods today, crapped, played, styled...
Off I went to Angeline's crib, ate, downloaded games, proceeded to BISHAN STADIUM.
The weather went crazy and it started pouring...
Man, I was looking forward to see the cheerleaders cheerleading...
Although I cant dance or co-ordinate myself properly but I enjoy seeing them dance.
Soon, there's thunder and lightning...ALL EVENT CANCELLED.
We sat there for a good 2-3 hrs doing nothing...
Looking at the rain tapping on patches of grass,wind blowing little raindrops to me.
:l So sadden-ing. I dont know why all the songs today in my MP3 are super emotional songs.
i re-shuffled it but the sad love songs just kept playing...Twirling my mind so much that I couldn't take anymore. Walked around the grand stand area, looked for Angeline.
The whole school was released at around 4-5pm...Damn bored.
Went home soon after that...): SHIT LIFE, SHIT ME.

Some people just think that they can bad-mouth and backstab people behind their backs.
But they usually did not think that the person SHE bad-mouths knows about EVERYTHING. STUPID SHIT.

I thought that I CAN move on. I really thought I will... :/
I HOPE I CAN...
Sigh, I still miss him alot.

BYE.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Yes, its over

Yes, IT IS OVER. Everything's over.
SHari is single YET AGAIN.
I dont know what to say, I dont know what to do.
Im like a small innocent girlie stranded in the streets.
Waiting for someone to grab me,pull me up and MoveOn.
I dont know what made it so easily breakable.
): I'll be soon alright, wont I?
I hope so. But for now, IM TERRIBLY NOT ALRIGHT.

Bye.
ily,i always do.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Worst day.

Im actually experiencing a roller coaster feeling. ):
For a moment, I asked him if he's free, he said yes. And I was so delighted, I tot that there's finally a chance whereby i could talk to him about my problems and everything. But I was fuckingly wrong. TOTALLY WRONG.
BABY DEAR,THINGS WILL NOT BE BETTER WITHOUT YOU. IT WILL NOT. I'LL BE REALLY UPSET. REALLY REALLY UPSET. ))): SO PLEASE...ITS NOT YOUR FAULT...NOT...NOT...FAULT...IM SORRY... I just cant stop thinking about it.
IM sorry dear. Im sorry.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

If its not meant to be yours, it will forever NOT be yours

yesterday was SHIT. ]: I dont know what will happen in future between baby and me. I really would just love to spend more time with him. But...there isnt time.

My toe nail dropped. I slammed the door without noticing my poor little toe there. BINGO. Now it hurts.

It is so freaking confusing and complicated. So many stuff had been happening... Im a loner. I faced everything by myself. I have no girlfriend to turn to, my boyfriend is too busy, only you and Uncle kk there for me. (: Thanks.

Life is never fair. I'll learn to stand up and face all the un-fairness. I will. And I must. Well, school's starting tomorrow. PE! (: YAY! I think i need a holiday, by the beach, alone relaxing. How wonderful! Okay, I got to go sleep. I noticed that sleeping is the only way i can get away from reality for me at least. BYE.

LOVEs,
SHARICHONG.
Michael, ily

Friday, March 14, 2008

WHAT IS THIS NOW?!


[: Went to school this morning for sectionals and WOW, I saw my long lost twin brother, Daniel laksana. 赖昭志. I MISS HIM SO DAMN LOADS LORHS! He became a little thinner and definitely more HANDSOME! you go twin bro! LOVE YA! Still he owes me my sakae treat.

Went for tuition and to j8. Back home...

Ms, I dont know if you are angry with me or with him or with others. But I dont understand why, Im sorry if i've did any that upset you or whatever. Maybe others are right, there isnt even an almost-perfect-person.

Sigh. Why are there so many problems. Is it my fault that things turned out this way.I dont know. I feel damn lost and stupid right now. ): I THINK i've got a bf. Named, MichaelBoonLiTat. I love him.
But at the same time, I dont feel the love. Maybe its time. Shari oh shari. Time is here. Do what you are suppose to do and get over it. Stop hurting ppl. ))):

SHUT UP SHARI CHONG.
GO TO BED.
Ok, My evil twin is calling me to bed.
Bye.
Loves,
SHARICHONG.
Its time to take action.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

I sometimes wonder. Am i attached? Do I have a boyfriend? AM I LOVED ANOT? Apparently, I have ZERO confidence in maintaining a relationship. ZERO. It might be extended to a negative number I guess. Probably if something happens and I have to break up with MBLT. ]: I AM SAD. LITERALLY SAD. sigh.

After " bathing " in the rain today. I am somehow or rather "awake". What am I saying... :l Things are never easy. I think God purposely made my life difficult yet meaningful. I had a difficult time climbing up to my current status. Im proud to say that I AM THE DRUM MAJOR FROM GUANGYANG SECONDARY SCHOOL. (:

Syf is approaching... Im having earthworms all over me. :l I WILL DO MY BAND, MY SCHOOL PROUD. JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE. THOSE WHO LOOKED DOWN ON ME WHEN I PROMOTE AS A DRUM MAJOR, JUST YOU SEE. I WILL. I WILL MAKE YOUR JAWS DROP. YOU HEAR THAT?! JAWS DROP! [:

Feelings are complicated lurhs. Everyone has their own preferences.Some likes this some likes that. Now, ppl, dont ever ignore someone when that person needs you alright? It sure does hurts. Especially when that person needs you.

haha. I've got nothing else to say.

LIFE'S A BEACH, NOT BITCH.

LOVES,
SHARICHONG.

To michael ;
Im gonna my top if you dont call me at least once this week.I will,W I L L chop off your dick.HAHAHA! (: alright. I love you.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Look at the difference. :l
And again, S H O R T
Still look short :l See Elgin even bent down
Daryl,Zhipeng,SHARI&kenneth boy
HANDSOMEBOY!
KINGSLEY! [:
LICK-A-LICIOUS
S H O R T = S H A R I

:D HAPPILY MOTIVATED!
TONGUES OUT!
At least I looked taller.
-_- BLUR LOOK.
This is blur too.But different blur


THREESOME
I LOVE THEM! (: My horny boys
IAN EE : WORLD CLASS HORNY FRIDAY NIGHT-ER
kaypo only...
LOVE'EM



SMILE DEARIES
WHY AM I SO SHORT.
I tot I wasnt in the photo. BUT I AM!
GIRLFRIEND!SHORTIE & TALLIE

It has been days since I post something... YEA MAN!!! Its holidays now and there is like no difference. To me at least! Haha. Tuition started last sunday, today was the second time i went there. The tuition centre only caters to those who need help in maths and physics.Time is flexible and its available at 2 places. Sims Ave & Serangoon interchange. I actually did some work today! haha. I did matrices today, vectors last week. (((:

Rained all day long. Make me emo only... :l And I got cheated to eat lunch with that small boy's parents and room-mates. Super awkward can?! :l Paiseh paiseh leh... Haha. Under my unbrella,ella,ella,eh,eh,eh,eh. :D HA.

Tired...Tired...[: time to yak on the phone again. Bursting my free-incoming calls. Wonder how much will it be! xD

K. BYE!
I love michaelBoonLitat.
Seriously. ]: I MISS HIM LIKE MAD CAN?!??!?!?!?!?!
He dint even talk to me lurhs.Busy boy. ]: sadded arhs..
Suck arhs!!! Why is everyone so busy.
Look,cry,shit,sleep.
LOVES,
SHARICHONG

Friday, March 07, 2008

Daryl,weineh,evelyn,shari,Kingsley,Ian.

Motivational camp rock socks!!! :D Coach Elgin and Coach Sam was the in-charge for both 4E2/3 today. Well, both of them were awesome!!! [: And yes, like what the previous sec4s said and told me... Its motivating, its useful, it make us think of what we want in life and stuff. Yea. And today is the first day...But i broke down even before half the session... After talking to Mr.Lim, I was feeling damn freaking down...And am already at the verge of breaking down...Im those kind of people who is "mental-weak" according to that basketball clique : weineh,aloy,etc... YES! I AM MENTALLY WEAK!!! I broke down when talking to Coach Elgin... He's a nice guy... I shall continue to listen hard and heed his advice! GO GO GO!!! :D

We played the entanglement game in the beginning... [: fun but i got molested and embraced by i dont know who... :l Mrs Foo touched me...WeiLoon nearly kissed my butt. I fell down...Dont know where. But everything was FUN! [: Highness!!! :DDD For now, study hard and study smart...!

Im a right-brained woman, combination of an audio,visual,kinesthetic learner. [:

BYEEE BLOG! :DDD

GOT TO CATCH SOME SLP COS COACH ELGIN SAID SO!

NIGHTS PPL!

MOTIVATIONAL CAMP STARTS TMR AGAIN!

OOOOHHHH! I LOVE THIS CAMP! MWAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH.!!!

GO!!! :D

SHARI CHONG IS BACK WITH HER SPIRIT OF EXCELLENCE!!! :D

ENDURE OUR SUCCESS BABEH!!!

:P

IM A DRUM MAJORETTE! IM PROUD TO BE ONE!!!

I know i can. I can...I CAN BRING MY BAND PROUD!

LOVES,
SHARI


Thursday, March 06, 2008

Cutie pie [:JAPANESE hottie :3
Random cutie at J8

Photos contributed by : Koo WeiLoon (:
Thanks Mr.Muscle :D
Lessons as per normal. I think Matrices test is easy but I dont know if I did it correctly.
[: SYF practice after school...
My arm is still in pain :l
Tired... ]:
I WANT TO BE THAT AWESOME DRUMMAJORETTE AGAIN!!!
Pls, someone...
Tell me, tell me that I can do it bring everyone that loves me proud.
Believe me. I'll do all I can just to realise our dream ; Distinction.
I love you darling boy.
mblt. <3
LOVES,
SHARI

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

:l My arm is still in pain. Literally P A I N F U L !

Wednesday's time-table is student friendly. Biology,POA,CME,recess,CHINESE,PCCG.
Class was quite dead today cos of the great weather and sleep-able lessons. [:

After school was 10,000 BC, at Plaza Singapura. Fun... But Im very tired now.
Saw a japanese baby that is super cute!!! Will upload the photo tmr [:

SHARI CHONG IS A BIG LOSER [:

I miss my darlingboy alot. ]:
It has been weeks since I met him.
I even seldom talk to him.
Well, his busy...
I love you honey.
:3

BYE!
SHARI,
SHARI,
I LOVE MBLT.
LOVES.

p/s : im used my left hand to type the whole text.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

One word, 4 letters. P A I N

Thats all I can say for today. Try doing everything using your left hand when you are a right-hander.
It suck. :l

Baby, I miss you... ]: I dont know what to say arhs. Just imy.

Bye blog. ]:
L O S E R
H
A
R
I

Monday, March 03, 2008

I cant tolerate it anymore. :l Im bursting out...Anytime, anywhere. Damn it. I dont know why should I even feel this way. Aiya, I dont know lurhs. I hope that things will be fine after awhile. I HOPE SO. I feel like a BIG LOSER. After telling a story about losers, I think that I AM THE BIGGEST LOSER. ]:

Ok, while reading TEENAGE today, I came by this article called : Youth Watch.
They introduced this new teaching aid for the class that helps student understand how contraceptives works. - Teenage.

It contains :

A set of worksheets
One condom
A box of contraceptive pills
One intra-Uterine Device
Many Picture cards

I think it might be helpful to all.
Better be safe than sorry dude/dudettes.

I think Im getting more nonsensical day by day.
Im a goner. :l
WHY IS SHARI CHONG SO DEMORALISED?!?!?!
Im a loser, loser,loser.

Look, Michael has a loser gf. [:
Nevertheless, I sitll love you baby.
My monkeyboyfriend. I did not stop loving you.
Not even once.Everything made me love you even more.
I just cant be satisfied. I want more of your love. Till you're drained.
Then I'll share my love with you. HAH. Im so selfish. Oh well.
Im a loser.

LOSER SAYS BYE BLOG!

You probably dont know how much I actually miss you, how much tears I shed just because I miss you. It may sound silly. But this is actually the first time Im separated from you for so long. Maybe its due to my habits, I dont know. ]: I tried talking to you. You were too busy... Honestly, I hate you. I hate you for being such a wonderful guy. ]: Will there be a day where you will be mine only? Not sharing you with your beloved brothers,your band...Just me and you... It seemed so far to me. :l I cant even dream of it. I'll let it remain as a fairytale in me. You are a meanie...Big meanie... ]: I love you michael boon li tat. I'll wait quietly for you to sneak back into my life...As quietly as how you entered previously. Y
I failed my english compre, top-ed my chinese class.

How funny huh. [: 59/60. One mark improvement from the previous test. But my english seriously suck. :l Im into deep shit. Mr.KOK didnt come to school today, we didnt know because there wasnt any announcement this morning say that we had to go to the library. We changed as usual and monkeyed around...Doing stunts and everything...Pile up on WeiLoon, me on him,evelyn on me... My boobs nearly deflated.

My injured wrist got from bad to worst. The pain extended to my shoulders and to my back finally [: How great. I didnt go to the chinese doctor, for one, I've got no $$$ to do so. Two, my mama said that I should not go alone, for all i know, the doctor might molest or even rape me HAH. [: But its hurting now arhs. I hope it'll be fine after tonight cos its like I've still got my mace work to do. :D

baby...I text you every now and then...I seldom get replies...I understand that you're busy...But I really miss you so... ]: Considering the fact that I might not even see you till after Syf...Its very disheartening...

Dear VP(Mr.Tan),
Shouting early in the morning at the whole school aint going to do you any good stuff. I personally treat people how they treat me...I sure WOULD NOT be polite to someone who shouts at people early in the morning when they dont know whats happening and its still Morning! I dont mean that you can shout at us unreasonably in the afternoon. But aiya, you know what I mean.
Scaring people early in the morning is a very evil idea. :l

Shari.
I miss my honey.
Im a lousy woman.
Right, im going to hit the books now. starting from MEN ARE FROM MARS,WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS.
Bye...
See. Im handicapped. Laugh for all you want. Nobody cares actually.
loves,
Sharichong.
p/s : beware of that dumb terrorist who ran away. Err...Mas Selamat Bin Katsari, it is?
Whatever lurhs.
I think that I am porno. :D
I fantasize.
I dream,
I drool,
I suck.

Sunday, March 02, 2008

woots

Satuday :

My Saturday routine changed due to extra practices for SYF. Waking up at 6am and leaving house at 7am really doesnt suit my Saturday. Well, I guess that I will get use to it, at least I hope so. [: After practice was lunch with unclekk then met w.k. Two big boys reunited, talked about their good times, bullying me. Then off we went home... my wrist hurts.

Sunday :

Woke up at around 10am this morning. [: Shiok-ness. Laze around, text my darlingboy.[He hasnt reply me till now] :l Went for movie, The leap years. Very touching and as usual, I cried... Lunch/dinner settled at Sakae Sushi. This was how I spent my day.

I miss MichaelBoonLiTat...
I injured my wrist but its recovering.
I have a useless knee.
Im a lousy Drum Major.
Im a lousy girlfriend.
Im a bad friend.
Where is the old SHARICHONG?
gone i think.
She needs her love back.
She wants her love back.

):
I love you.

SHARICHONG