My evil twin sister went back to hibernate yesterday. [: And that will mean :

• No more stupid faces
• No more of seeing my down so often
• More smiles
• More bubbly
• crazy like usual, or maybe more than that
• study
  
• Less emotional times with dearest
• EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER.

Yes! My evil twin creep up on me again making me such a turn-off and my love couldn't stand me.
That was the worst, for an instance, I thought that he dont love me ANYMORE! ): It was effingly saddening for your informations. ): I cried like bitch for hours and get very paranoid. I get nervous and hysterical for the slightest thing that happened. And I though life was a bitch all along. No that things are cleared and stuff, I've decided to make a change. Its time to, I think. It has been a long time since I want to do something like this for anyone.

I made confessions and promises and everything. Its funny to see myself doing it all for love. ALL in the name of MY love, WANGYICHENG. But it will be worth well huh? :D I came to realize, the false front I've always put on. The strong old Shari whom always smile for no reason like an idiot. Goes around spreading love and sunshine and everyone thinks that she's the most bubbly girl they've ever seen. But I was told, the real isnt like this. I'm a girl who dislike noise, love peace and will day dream. The Me who is afraid of darkness, loneliness and everything that might eat me up and make me fall into the deep abyss. Am very afraid that I cant be strong anymore. Now that I've got a boyfriend, one type that I've never been together with. Gotta see what must be done to keep him by my side.

I need ONE more degree from you honey. Maintain it and we'll be fine :D
Sorry for the appearance of my twins :P
Eyes swollen, very swollen cos' I cried like nobody's business and I felt really better! :D

JERSEY COLLECTED!
AM LOVIN' IT!
Went to Queenstown with Mr.Muscle(FEI) and was awesomely fun. Though my mind was somewhere else. :P
We read my storybook in the bus together, looked for vocabs in his phone, laughed at girls.
There this girl whom brushed her butt( i think) against his elbow and he got all disgusted. :S
I was laughing so hard then. :P
Laksa was our lunch and the lime juice was equally good. :D
Went back to school with a very satisfying stomach. I dont wanna elaborate what happened after that because I think that I'll only embarrass myself. :l No doubt, things are fine now :D

BYE!
I LOVE WANGYICHENG :3
`SHARI
MUACKS.
Sunshine.

SCHOOL'S REOPENING!!!

Yes, school is re-opening tomorrow! YAY!

BUT...that will mark the beginning of ultimate studying sessions. :0 This is what BiBi said I should do.

- Go home straight after school EVERYDAY.
- No messaging in class.
- SWITCH OFF my phones after 7pm.
- Study
- No HORROR movies.
- Must be in bed before 12am'

))): It will be a torture to me! But still I promised him. I hope that I can stick to all these RULES.
Sigh. I'll be much a criminal I guess. :l
Okay, I need $450 now.
ALL MY FAULT.
NOW WHERE ON EARTH CAN I FIND THAT MONEY?
I hate to borrow money from my beloved ones. ):
But I think that I'd probably have to.
Sorry... ))):

I TRY MY BEST TO BORROW THAT AMOUNT OF MONEY!

Right, no tuition today because mum thinks that I should take a break from all this.
Oh ya, I went to Chinatown that day and was surrounded by 4 angmoh girls. They dragged me to take photos with them. My grandmother just watch me being dragged away by 4 strangers!
SAD! ):

Okay, thats all for today.
Got to go find money!!!
BYE.
I LOVE THE WORLD.
AND MY BELOVED BOY.
`SHARI,
Sunshine...

*someone please paste some $50 notes on me.* thank you.

What an " AWESOME" holiday.

Im back from a camp and a concert in school (:

The concert yesterday was F U N! :D Mum,Dad and little bully was there. Beloved KengKeat was there too, Daniel and company. Man, I miss those guys. Hah! The days where we often joke around and stuff... Sigh. They had all graduated and went separate ways. :l Robin, Jerald, Bjorn, Desmond and co. was back to help out in the camp. We did nothing much except for exams papers and TYS. Oh, SUCK. hahahahahhahahahahahah! Right, no games for us. But we did play in the concert :D HAPPY. Especially when we really enjoyed the whole show, looking at people who moved with us, smile at us and clapped for us. How wonderful. And Darren, its alright if you're not there for the concert. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A NEXT TIME!!! :D But please dont drag me for any night walks! Im scared. Especially in school... EEEEWWWWWWWWW... :P

:D Im gonna have my re-exams starting from tomorrow.I hope that I wont flunk it this time...If not I can really kill myself or something else. So much for the expectation from Bibi. :l S I G H.
Well, holidays had never been relaxing for ALL sec4s.

Dad let me out on friday and I went out with BiBi. :D
Went to BiBi brother's sausage shop and ate cheese balls. And and and that disgusting lemon juice with lemon grass... Yucks, but he likes it. -__- Pepper lunch after all the singing...Blah blah.

Before the rehearsal for concert started ytd, I went to bibi's house to eat breakfast. TAIWAN PASTA. haha. And the pretty pink boxers ShuLan. :D Shocked. Because he had such white thigh and I didnt see any hair on his leg, for a moment, I thought that there is a girl in his house. :O
Chunyu conveniently used machi to scare me ))): But she's a good girl(:

Okay,
There will be a concert held in some hall in NUS @ 7pm by Orchid Park Secondary School.
Text me if you want any ticket, I'll help you check it out with their ADM. (:
92272911/93570705.

Video of concert yesterday is up in YOUTUBE.
Search for GYSB concert or something like that.

BYE,
LOVES,
SUNSHINE(:

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I crapped my uncle's computer that day. I forgotten when, he seemed to be very angry but I dont really care. .

BEHOLD...

BOSTON OWNED LAKERS. :D

Oh well, Darren & Chunyu. So much for pinning very very high hopes on LAL. But yea man, Boston owned them. YAY YAY. Go Celtics. Was watching Hills have eyes with BiBi early in the morning at around 7+am before we watched NBA finals. BiBi's mummy joined us watching "hills" and she said that it was disgusting or something like that. Haha. Darren is probably upset now because LAL LOST. Hah! Man! BiBi's parents were great :D It was making of dumpling while watching NBA with Chunyu,BiBi's parents and him. They identified mine very easily, the ugliest ones. Then they will say, "Oh, Shari made this" because it looked weird and ugly. My first time what!!!

BRB. GOING OUT!

LOVES,
SHARICHONG.I LOVE WYC

SUNSHINE

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I have seriously no idea what to do now.
Chill and just wait for everything to be over.
I'll treat my BiBi nicer and love him EVEN MORE.
No more bullying of him.
I'll let him be the King while I be his maid.
Thats what he wanted even before we were together.
The 3months maid agreement never failed to amuse me.
Would you rather a you die I die situation or a happily ever after ending?
I've thought it over.
I would pick myself up and look at the brightest side, like how I usually do so.
So honey, dont worry. You take care of your health and you'll be fine isnt it?
I'd be nicer to you. Because now, I realised...
I cant lose you. I have to treasure you.
I love you.
Let me be the one by your side.
Let me share your woes.
Let me be your only one.

IM BACK.
(: I LOVE WANGYICHENG.
Yes.
IM PROUD TO SAY THAT MY BOYFRIEND IS A WEIRD BUT CARING CRAZY GUY(:

Im back to bitch about my very own life. Yes.

Firstly, both my knees hurt and the skin peeled. Secondly, my butt hurts too. Thirdly, my heart hurts the most.

I've been tolerating with my dad's nonsense all this while without blasting my whatever stupid nonsense. Great. He's my dad afterall and I had thought it over, I should not let my mum get upset because of the tension between my dad and I. I love my mum just as much as she loves me. Im gonna be fine. I will.

Yesterday incident left me a great impact. I realised that it happened all because of me. If it wasnt because of me. After receiving that call, I couldnt sleep. I was wide awake till this morning despite having my limb aching. Many things ran across my mind, I've been thinking and reflecting. The way I've been treating you and our relationship. Am I treasuring what I have now? Or am I taking it for granted? I dont know. I just want to let you know that I love you. I hadnt been thinking that I might be the cause of what happened to you yesterday night until someone told me. You might die if this continues. You MIGHT just die or leave me temporarily. Im afraid. Im scared. Im terrified that you will leave one day silently and I'll be there puzzled and blaming everyone else. Why? Yes, now I know. Its because of me. The endless calls at night, the effort to make breakfast, to send me home, to do everything that will just make me smile. Yet, I didnt realise that this might push you to danger. Im so stupid that I didnt realised. Im sorry. I completely forgetten that you actually need more care and love than I do. Because of me, everything happened. Im not pushing all the blame to myself but I felt that I should at least take some responsibility. Im sorry. I get angry and everything over the slightest thing, just to test whether if you are true and will not leave me alone someday. Im selfish. Yes, I am. Im not a good girlfriend. Sometimes I dont blame you for what you did and for why you lie. I realised, its not your fault at all. Its mine. Im not a good girlfriend that will make you feel safe. Im not mature enough to help you solve your problems or even listen to them. That was why you chose to talk to others instead of me. Im a demanding bitch who made you have second thoughts about doing something or another. Im sorry. I told you, Im not a good girlfriend.

I told Fei, I would let go if a better girl comes by. If it really happens, I would let you go without bothering you. I would. Trust me. Im not good enough to do anything for you. Why not let you be happier with other girls? I dont mind. In fact I'd be happier if you are.

For now, I just want to apologise to you, your friends and your parent. For those who are worried about you. Im sorry. Im NOT a fantastic girlfriend. I DONT make a good one either.
Im sorry. Truely sorry.

Im really very very scared now. I dont mind if you leave for a better girl. But please dont leave me because of me. My wrongdoings. I love you.

BYE
`SHARI.
I dont feel like sunshine today.