LOVE

爱情。

有人说，爱情就像玫瑰。

它虽然不是什么特殊品种，没有惊天动地，更看不见海枯石烂，生离死别。说不定，你还会怀疑，这些事情就发生在对面的得两条街。或者，怀疑这些事就发生在你每天必经的公车路线。
玫瑰，我们到处都能找到它。有红，黑，蓝，黄和白色的。每种颜色的玫瑰都象征不一样的意义。爱情，也不过如此。幸福，甜蜜，苦涩，煎熬，困难重重。不同的感情，感觉都代表爱情不同的阶段。

一朵开花的玫瑰，很漂亮，很诱人。让人有想接近它，与它有近距离接触的冲动。但它们往往都忽略了，在那张的美丽动人的外表下，竟然长了那么多会让人扎伤手的刺。一不小心就会被那些毫无人人情味的刺扎个正着。

一段看是幸福美满的爱情，又隐藏不可告人的秘密？双方都有遵守曾经给予对方的承诺吗？还是像玫瑰一样，完美之中隐瞒了丑陋的刺？

有人说，爱情就像在坐云霄飞车一样。

善意的谎言，失望，伤心，开心，希望。这些感觉就像在坐云霄飞车一样。它会把你载到最顶端，让你欣赏最美，最漂亮的风景。就在你你正开心，兴奋的欣赏时，它开始急速向下飞奔，让你陷入害怕，疯狂，无助的状态。再来，它就会把你载到一个让你会全身沾满泥土的泥泞。泥泞后，你看见的会是一个瀑布。穿过瀑布后，你一身的泥巴都会被洗干净。那也会是两个恋人所谓的：雨过天晴。不久后，你将会不知不觉地，一而再，再而三的坐上这辆爱情的云霄飞车。

爱情，不应该单凭一句“我爱你！”。在我眼里，爱情也是两人之间的一个承诺。有些人常把爱说出口，又有些人喜欢把爱藏在心里。那是爱在心里口难开？还是口说无凭？两个人相爱，不只是说“我爱你”那么简单。需要不只是真心，而是还需要互相坦白，迁就，信任，给予对方需要的自由和空间。最重要的是要沟通。当然，每个人的爱情都不一样。

在沉溺于爱河时，我们不应该忽略亲情和友情。毕竟，家人和朋友才是最了解你，爱护你，保护你到永远的人啊！

爱情。到底什么才叫做爱情？

Is it going to end or is it just another of my nonsense.

I'm beginning to feel that I'm just not good enough for you. Each time we speak on the phone, it seemed that we only have lesser and lesser stuff to talk about. Compared to the times when we spent hours and hours talking on the phone, without having to pause and think of anything to fill those awkward pauses. Well, at least most of the time.

Am I just not good like other girlfriends should be or am I not as understanding as you thought I'd be? I have to admit that, I am just a an ordinary girl. Yes, I'm willing to give in and close one eyes on certain things. But still, I need what a normal girl needs. The love, the care, the attention, the thought, the tiniest details a guy should take note. Not taking me for granted instead, knowing what I need most. Not what I can give you most. Once, just once. Please, pamper me like your very own precious. I wont ask for more, I only want once. Once is enough. I know you love me. But I need more, I need more to continue to giving you what you expect from me. Am just a very ordinary girl. I need broad shoulders to lean on, warm arms to wrap around me. Am I asking too much? If I am, then forget it. I'll just make do with I've got. No one else make me feel this way, only you can. You're the one who determine me happiness and you're the only one who can hurt me like nobody else can. You have the power to control me entire thoughts and feelings now. Its all in you.

Dont give me anymore craps like " I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, THEREFORE I'M GIVNG YOU UP AND YOU CAN FIND YOURSELF A BETTER GUY "

To me, its all crap. If I'll find other guys better and more suitable for me. Why would I bother to even love you more than loving myself? In case you dont know dear, it hurts when you say all these to me.

For the past 3months, I've gone through so many things. Your mum especially. I know I should not blow up and say all these awful stuff now. But, this is the only way I can seek counsel and comfort from. I'm not trying to sow discord between you and your mum. Your mum is always right. Still she's your mother, someone who loved you since you were not even born. Me? Im just another girl crossing your life and am loving you for the past 3months, still counting. Colide, stayed, forgotten. Is this gonna happen to me? I hope not. ):

The weather is very cold right now. My heart seemed to feel even colder. I need warmth from you. Where are you exactly? I dont want to be someone whom you crashed in your love path. Instead, I want to walk and face challenge with you on this road (provided you give me this chance to )

I may be a good girl-friend. But I'm definitely not a good girlfriend.

Love you always,
Shari.

HAPPY SIMPLE DATING(((:

Yesterday was SWEET!!! :D

Err, not as what we planned to do. But it was still alright lurhs(: The initial plan was catching that Thailand horror movie (4BIA) at 13.45. At last, he confessed that he cant watch that movie because of his illness): and he's not a fan of horror movie, UNLIKE ME! I love watching horror movies, scaring my own shit out :3 Oh yeah! Comfort(: Distress myself from stressing. HAHA. :D

Okay, so after buying a box of salmon sushi, we went to raffles place. Then to City hall. (: Ate Chippy and felt so freaking bliss. Sitting down by the lane, feeding each other with piping hot fries and beer battered fish, mashed potato. And I gobbled up the 15cm sausage(: haha. Got 3 donuts from donut factory. (: Then went back to Market Place to get a 12piece salmon sushi. :D GREAT FAN OF SUSHIs AND JAP FOOD(:

Then saw DESMOND(: AND KAH HO! :D

HOMED THEN.

MUCH LOVES!!! :D

KISSES, [:

`SHARICHONG.
SUNSHINE LOVE.

When there's love, there should only be love(:

:D LOVE LOVE LOVE
SELF-OBSESSION, PASIR RIS CHALET(: DOUBLE SLEEP BED.
ME(:
GUESS WHO?

KUMAR & ERRR... :D

为你做不可能的事。

爱情是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制
爱情是一种本事
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
爱情是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情是一种本事
我在你心里什么位置
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
为你写诗
为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智为你写诗
为你静止为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记但唯一不忘的是你的样子
我什么都能忘记但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记但唯一不忘的是你的样子

:D 雨过天晴，一条彩虹。
幸福。
它让人心疼。
让人热血沸腾。
是你让我幸福，让我快乐。
知道你伤心，我的心比谁都疼。
爱情。
我的爱情就是你。
专属于我的爱情。
不要离开，即使我会心痛，我也不会放手。
爱在心里口难开。
你不可以这样。
因为我会很难过，伤心。
所以，把你的爱情和幸福都交给我。
让我好好保管他，不让任何人伤心，受伤。

I love you dear(((:


`SUNSHINE LOVE

CRASH,BANG,POW!

(((: What's the feeling of getting an A1(distinction) for Chinese O'level? SHIOK ARHS! Im extremely happy and proud of myself. I thought I was going to get a B3 or A2 because the paper was done "oh-so-not-seriously". Im lucky this time that nothing happened. Phew. Im gonna work hard for the other paper as well.

Now, the relationship of me and beccajiejie had soured. I dont know which fucked up asshole went to tell her about my relationship with Bibi. Now, SHARI CHONG HAD BEEN A DISAPPOINTMENT. Wow, imagine hearing that from someone you're very close to, and the message was sent early in the morning at 6.30am. Yes, just because I am in a relationship and I've let practically EVERYONE down. And was named, "the next Eilene". (: W-O-W. Thanks to whoever did that(: Changing of POP commander, training of a new one to take over me for year end. All the best for my studies and love life. Take care Shari.

(: Now, Im officially a "MAJOR" let down. " please do not backstab Eilene or any other majors from them being attached. Because I had already destroy my reputation. Betrayal,disappointment,destruction,next Eilene. This is all I get in the end(: Maybe I am. Oh well, I cant stop people from thinking this way. But if they do, im sure others have eyes. No matter what, I still respect and love beccajiejie,Jasen and Fadhil.

Okay, Im going to the library to study now. Then to pasir Ris for BBQ. BYE(:

WHAT A HAPPY ENDING(:

SWEETS for my SWEETS.
SHARICHONG.

(: H-A-P-P-Y

Passed my chemistry test :D 24.5/30. Studied for it and I got a pretty high score, with the highest mark being 26, Im quite close to it am I? This means that my effort paid off(: So damn freaking happy. Yesterday was pretty alright, Mrs.Foo didnt come and we didnt have our maths supplementary class, I went to play volleyball instead. It has been quite awhile since I played and Daryl said that Im a NOOB ): Oh well, he's a national player you know? STICKY.

BiBi accompanied me to the bus stop and I went home because I was really to tired to send him home. But he made an effort to send me home today(: Hooray :D

There's an accounts test tomorrow on Personal accounts. I think Im going to flunk it):
Fei, I NEED YOUR HELP! I know that you are damn good in your accounts, dont be selfish. :D

OKAY, IM LIKE SO LOOKING FORWARD TO FRIDAY,
BEACH, SUN, FRIENDS, BIKINIS, HUNKS, BREAST, BALLS,
FUN!!!

I hope that nothing spoils our plan, if not I'll kill myself ):

OKAY,
BYE!!! :D
LOVE LOVE LOVE
SHARI
`SUNSHINE :D

BABY, YOU SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF ME):

FRIDAY,1.8.2008
was SHIT for me. Morning started off with a shock of my life that Bibi's sick and wont be going to school. He's epilapsy relapsed in the midnight and he nearly fall off his bed. ): His mom called me when I was in the bus and I just tear from there till I reached school and burst out crying. EMBARRASSED. He's mom probably thinks that Im the cause of it, Im doing bad for him, Im not a good girl, Im just one of those few ex he had. ): Thanks to Huann and Ash for sitting there with me and that piece of tissue paper. (: Thats the good thing about having girl-friends, they always know what to do with crying people. Still, it was embarrassing. If fei's there, I'd probably need his broad shoulders. I miss him and he's Men's health dream. ):

Math was a disaster when I stoned and Mrs.Foo comforted me after lesson and assured me that nothing will happened to him. She's a great teacher/bitching partner, we always have something in common to talk/bitch about. Social studies was a bit better when I read Sae's magazine. Mother tongue lesson was only physics MCQ. Biology was more to a girl's talk thing with Huanni and my love lives(according to what Huann said), started looking back to my "past" and the boyfriends. Hah, Im counted fortunate in my Primary school days because I get to enjoy many many things. That was one of the times that I really get to talk to a girl so happily before, having too many guy friends are not as wonderful as many of us think. Girl-Girl talk. I'll treasure it(: THANKS HUANN.

Met XiangLin 哥哥 after school and I was told that he had been waiting for me from 11am-1pm. ): Sorry! Felt so much better after a cup of Ice-blended caramel mocha and talking to him.
2hours with him in the open plaza let me had a better understanding of that "angry-looking' guy. That was the first impression I had of him, it was after that then I found out that how awesome and caring he was, indeed, a very good brother(: Im so damn fortunate. I went back to school for the rehearsal for my CCA awards and he went to play basketball I think((: Great guy.

After the rehearsal, I rushed to Bishan Mall and got Bibi's fish&chips, pineapple water and chocolate muffin. Went to his house to visit him and felt extremely bad): I love him. I seriously do. Went back home feeling very unwell that night. ]:

SATURDAY,2.8.2008
Went for Dark Knight with Bibi, Shulan, Fabian and XiangLin哥哥 at Jubilee. It was err, not very nice actually. I dont think that there'll be anymore Batman series. Since Harvey died, Bruce exposed. Oh well, Joker hanging in the air. sit until butt cramp. And I smuggled 6 bottles of polka tea and a Mos burger inside the cinema(: Fabian was freezing in the cinema because I used two jacket. :P SORRY! Went to Sportslink to shop around a little then to 新天地 to look for Shulan's comic. :p PORN. Haha. Shulan's porno. Went back home alone after that. That was where all the stupid stuff occured ): I dont wanna talk about it. I dont want it to happen again.
Its a torture for me, I cant take that. Im sorry dear. I dont know how to handle all these. I really dont))): Im sorry and Im not going to leave you. I LOVE YOU(: WYC.

SUNDAY,3.8.2008
Tuition. Tuition. Eat. Eat. Pig, Pig. Text, text.

BYE!(:
I MISS YOU TOO 赖俊辉, LAI QUIN FEI.
I LOVE TOU TOO WANGYICHENG(:
Yes, I LOVE MY GODBROTHER(s) TOO(:

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里，
因为我，只想要你开心。
我知道我会辛苦，也会难过，但我什么都愿意。
不在乎狂风暴雨，不管你在哪里。

我不想，
“最后的疼爱是手放开”