): Decide to write today's post in English. Its the usual, R.A.H.T (Rot At Home Thing). Damn bored I tell you. Make me so irritated. ]:

Sigh, I hate it when I get all fucked up. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK!!!

DAMN F U C K - U P

ARGH!!!!

BYE.

P.s, everything is just NOT right now. I suspect, I don't trust, I cant feel the love as intense anymore. ]:

肥兵超可爱的！！！ 卡哇伊！
很可爱对不对？好像一个日本小男孩，我看了一只都好想笑！今天去了蜜糖的家后，就去陪他和肥兵去理发。听说是肥兵喜欢那里的一个hairdresser。 哈哈。今天蜜糖不舒服，我跟肥兵都不知道要怎样弄他舒服一点。买薏米水，人参酸梅和一个甜的酸梅。希望他会好些！

爱你哦，蜜糖♥

刚跟Honey传简讯。聊到将来我们要干嘛。我就跟他说，我想开间小餐厅，晚上就变成小两口能一起去的小酒吧。店的地点就会在外国，一个靠海的角落。如果自己有经济能力的话，就开个小住宿。不要很多房间，就差不多5-10间吧。3个房间，可能就是家庭式的。其余的就当然是个couple的啊！哈哈。
每个房间主题都不同。例如，有浪漫的，好玩的，海洋的，音乐的，俏皮的，还有稍微色情的。哈哈。都说了是给couple的了！干脆色情一点。哈哈。这样可以促进感情嘛！这个idea还不赖吧？伙食都我负责，我可以请一两个厨师，三个人打点客人的料理。最好是可以煮international的料理！哎哟！真是太理想了！！！

听说，舒岚也想干这行。哈哈。 最好是哦。那我们就可以一起开，一起经营，一起玩！！！最好是叫他的宝贝一起来。那两个couple经营的住宿一定会吸引很多人！！！ 好耶！

Honey病了。真伤心。

对了！昨天，偶很honey去看电影耶！超开心的。呵呵！跟他拍拖那么久，昨天才第3次跟他去看电影。哈哈。没空嘛！我们很忙的。加上他现在要工作，相处的时间是少只又少哦！只好珍惜每一次见面的机会咯。只要能看到他，我就心满意足！开心！YEAH! 真的好开心。

对他有种“就是你”的feel。很奇妙吧？哈哈。

好啦，说到这里，改天再说。

拜啦！
♥我的比比！

烦死了。

受不了了。受不了这种无理的家庭管理系统。我讨厌，讨厌现在的生活。讨厌这一切，为什么会这样。
不管我做什么，每个人都认为是错的。从早上骂到晚上，好像不会停的。我讨厌。讨厌你们全部。
换我我应该有的自由。我不想做你们家的小孩。

你好像离我越来越遥远了.

心,好沉重哦。难得你今天放假，我还以为我们俩可以好好今情地谈谈天。觉得自己好天真哦。舒兰说的对，不要再执著于感情的事了。那只会没完没了，昨晚跟舒岚在msn谈了2个小时。没想到，我圣诞的的最后两个小时是跟他说话度过的。这意想不到！自己的男朋友都不知道在那里。感觉好失败哦。
什么兰girlfriend啊！好讨厌自己。

远距离恋爱，会让对方更想念自己吗？还是，他只会让双方的感情渐渐淡去。如果哪能让对方更珍惜自己的话，我想飞去澳洲。

我对自己越来越没有信心了。

对你的思念
是一天又一天
孤单的我
还是没有改变
美丽的梦
何时
才能出现
亲爱的你
好想再见你一面
秋天的风
一阵阵的吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心
到底在想些什么
为什么留下
这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过

决定不要再这样了。

今年的圣诞即特别又寂寞。也许这些都是注定的吧？永远都孤单的圣诞，也是时候任命了。我不期望，也许这样，我就不会在觉得伤心了吧？朋友跟情人，你会选择哪个？我是个百分白的中色轻友，所以，我选择情人。但如果你的情人的思想跟你不一样呢？那我建议你们，安静的接受这一切吧。没必要弄到两败俱伤。

男人的话能信吗？因人而异吧？有时，我真的不知道该不该信，弄到我好烦好烦哦。男人的一个小时是现实的两三个小时吧。当我最需要你的时候，你在哪里？我在痛的时候，你又在哪里？和朋友尽情的享受圣诞吗？好不公平。原本只属于我的你，就因为朋友，你把我留下，留我一个人，过这残酷的圣诞。只是我应有的吗？我没想你要求礼物，我只想知道你是在家里，跟我一样的躺在床上，静静的过着我们俩的圣诞。但是，现在，这些对我来说已经不重要了。算了，我决定不再靠你了，我不想再受伤，我不想一次又一次的失望。我会学着如何不要再做你的负担，不要再妨碍你交朋友，和朋友出去。
够了。我最讨厌被人家遗弃在一旁，最讨厌无助的感觉。我讨厌需要一个人承受这一切。
责任感，算什么？这一切都不重要了。真的，我不想过没责任感的生活。

这，根本不是我理想中的圣诞。我不要。。。在这样过生活了。我会学着靠自己，不再带给你困扰。

我还是会继续爱你的。

圣诞节快到了！

刚吃完火锅，身体暖洋洋的，好舒服哦！亲爱的放工后就来找我，好开心！今年的圣诞真是没看头，被困在家里，又没收到什么圣诞礼物。妈妈就好咯，公司里每个人都送她礼物。连平时懒散的舅舅都买了个nintendoDs给他的girlfriend. 我好久都没收到这种礼物了！我现在最想要得就是一架PSP Slim, 听说他不只能玩游戏，还能看电影。真好。我从小到大都没有一个真正属于我自己的game gadgets. 我想啊，我是跟这种东西没缘！

还是独自一人过完这寂寞的圣诞吧！
祝你们佳节愉快！
拜啦！

这两天都在看漫画,昨天度玩乐absoluteboyfriend，现在，在读Kyou Koi wo Hajimemasu。遭了啦！最近都迷漫画，眼睛就快坏掉了啦！好无聊。没什么好说的。祝大家，圣诞节快乐 in advance(:
希望大家都会收到自己想要的礼物哦！

拜啦！
♥you guys!

工作还是我？

大家好！
我在想，是不是应该换一下我的blogskin了？这个好像用了很就耶。好无聊哦，没事做。男友在工作，我又每天被困在家里。真是个名副其实的懒惰鬼，整天懒懒散散的，没精神，什么都没有。没钱，没自由，没人陪。

今天最衰了啦！好不容易以为能和honey一起过过二人世界，没想到，他妈的，他得加班。什么嘛！妈妈屁！找他拿了钱，就在那里做了一会儿。心情真的是差到一个不行，脸黑到像黑炭。真是的。明天就是平安夜了！可是我都不能出门，不能和他一起过。靠腰！

在家里真是无聊啊！婆婆在看[一支梅]，哇靠，她比我还迷韩剧！我都不怎么迷这些偶像或电视剧的，反倒是我妈和婆婆在追。今天陪妈去逛街，买了5件超口爱的小内裤！哈哈。开心！只可惜没时间去买我想要得那些超性感内衣。呼呼。 给honey看到的话。。。 他一定直喷鼻血！哈哈！

好无聊哦！！！最近都好爱模仿’蒋小花’，弄到honey好烦。哎哟！我好久没有吃到真正好吃的料理了。香肠吃到我都腻了！今天又帮他们弄一些cheeseball给客人。靠腰，帮了还被他骂！泉兴都没骂我你骂什么嘛！讨厌！以后你弄我生气我就对泉兴好。哈哈。看你还敢不敢捉弄我，不然就跟你哥说，如果你还不听，我就跟你妈说。一定会人替我出气的。哈哈！

好累哦。
嗯，我先去休息了。
拜啦！
♥你。

你妈妈的。

孤单，寂寞，伤心，痛心，疑惑，困扰。这些好像都不足以表达我的心情。独自一个人，守在电话旁，好像在等待什么奇迹发生一样。时间过了好久好久，已经好累了。可是我不管怎么睡，怎么躺，我还是睡不着。这是所谓的失眠吗？有时我真搞不懂耶。我又不是故意要吐你的，说得好象我是有意要伤害你一样。真是的。失眠。。。

这几天，互相转的简讯，每天不到二十封。比起以前的五十到一百封，这些算什么嘛？失眠又不是我的错。干吗说到好像是我不要睡啊？

要尽快想办法找出那四十块！

好了，我要去看我的漫画了！
还蛮好看的耶！

拜啦！
♥死你了。

开心哦!

哇靠！我现在超开心的! 手提电脑拿回来了！可是那个收讯不好勒。今天是冬至，早上起来，看了一下“我猜” ，不久后就被拉去弄汤圆了。哈哈，我弄的汤圆还真是不错！有心形，方形，长形的。有时啊，我还真讨厌那些有电话却不听的人勒。不过。。。我却偏偏爱上了这种人。))):

好啦。WYC， 我♥你啦！

Feeling damn great now!

I'M FEELING GOOD, GREAT, AWESOME, SUPER & POWERFUL!

Baby's no longer to punish me and I promise to be a good girl now. :3 How much I love him!
Thanks for coming to my POP today honey! THANKS FABIANLOH TOO! And of 'cos, lil fatty!
And my MUM&BRO. (: So touched to see 'em there!

After waiting for so long... From a recruit, to a Private, to a lance coperal, to a staff sergeant and now, FINALLY! To a MASTER SERGEANT! Feel so good now. Since the outdoor SYF 2years ago, I told people around me and myself that I want to be a drummajorette and lead a band by myself. Everyone laughed and told me to stop dreaming. Last year around August, I've been appointed as the Drum majorette' 08 for Guangyang Symphonic Band and am to lead the band for an outdoor assesment for SYF this year. I had never felt so accompplished. Today, I am proud to say that I am proud of GYSB. And graduating as Master Sergeant, I'd help GYSB in any ways I can, like how that alumni are doing now.

For my dearest majorettes now : Drum Majorette, Yong HuiTing
Band major : Viandra
Ast bandM : Neo XingQi
Ast DrumM : Ng WaiMin.

Good luck for your upcoming SYF and do our band proud. Strive hard, uphold your duties, no politics and aid your teachers,conductor! (: I want you guys to be the best you all can be. Jiayou!

Same to everyone in the band. All of you are precious to GYSB. Do your best and you'd feel proud that you all had built a band you guys called a Family. (: take care.

WE ARE ONE BAND!

WYC, ily
:3

UPDATE FOR GOGO FRANKS!

I've linked it. Go take a look and go down to taste it.
I myself alone, ate 20 over cheeseballs yesterday for lunch/dinner.
That shows how much I love it!

): Punishment.
Sigh, I miss WYC.

bad girl gone worst

I'm a bad girl.
And I'm going to receive my 2weeks punishment.
Pray hard that I'd pull through!
)))':
Tomorrow's POP, wonder who's going? I can't locate KengKeat.
Oh well.
I feel sick. Bahh.

With many many kg of LOVEs

iloveWYC

FUCKING HAPPY

HOOORAY!

After waiting for so long, ITS HONEY'S BIRTHDAY!!! Oh my, Im so effing happy. Like TOTALLY!
I was so excited that I called him at 12am. (: He's finally 18! So happy for him! LOVE HIM! Went to look for him just now & waited for him to finish his work. Walao. His brother and colleague made fun of my AI XIN bread. >:/ Anyways, they are AWESOME! Serious! You all should go to GOGO FRANKS. They have DELICIOUS-LY YUMMY sausages!!!

Available in many flavours :
- Beefy cheese
- Black pepper
- Red roast
- Cheese
- & I forgotten. But they CHEESE ones are DAMN AWESOME I tell you.

They have cheese balls too! YUMMY cheese balls.
8pcs for $3/11pcs for $4
Very affordable! And its heavenly when it's drenched with mayo&chili or even mustard/ketchup
Drooling already right?

What's more? You can wrap your sausages with PRATA or a BUN. And its only $3!!! I personally heart the stuff there! YUM YUM!

They have this turkey ham prata thing. I havent try it yet. Maybe tomorrow? I'm so going to eat it everytime I'm there!!!
-Another new one is the one drenched with chocolate. Yet to try too. HAH.

Frozen sausages are available too! You can buy it back and just pop it into the hot water or even your oven! See, they're so thoughtful right? (:

Not only that, THEY HAVE SAUSAGE SPAGHETTI TOO!!! Only @ $4. How touching, they seemed to have everything. Awww. I'd take picture of them soon! Not to mention that the guys working there are kinda cute. HAHA :3

You'd get thirsty from eating right? FEAR NOT! Lemongrass/orange juice are available too!
You can just top up a dollar or two to get the drinks if you buy a prata. They have affordable value meals too.
TOTALLY THOUGHTFUL!

See, what's there to wait anymore? Go grab your favourite sausages now! (:

Its at AMG MO KIO hub's basement. GoGo Franks.

YOU WONT DARE TO MISS IT I TELL YOU!

I've tried it and seriously think that its fuckingly delicious. I'm going to eat it tomorrow!
YIPEEE! :D

Its a MUST TRY!

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY!
LOVE YOU!

p.s : Remember to go try.

Height difference :3
Just woke up from nap
Wannabe
IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING
Whisper Whisper

(:
Poser :x
Dangle,dangle,dangle
KICK YOUR ASS
JUMPSHOT
Jumpshot
MUACKS
Like dragon :3
Troo Troo train~
:P
Hughug for Sweehan
0.0
YO!
All dearest friends(:
I love band camps!
My dearest dear

Went for practice today to prepare for this saturday's POP. (: YAY! I'd be passing down and my juniors will be taking my duties (: ALL THE BEST JUNIORS! :D Love you guys! ROCK ON!

Then went to buy honey's birthday present, one white backpack for him 'cos tomorrow is his BIRDDAY(: LOVE HIM SUPER LOADS. Went to Amk Hub to look for him. Patronized his brother shop and spent $7 there. :3 So good right, got pay money one xD

Back at home now. I missing my honey :D

LOVEYOU!

Go! GoGo Frank. GO!

Wakao, damn sian.
Honey started working already. IM GONNA BE SO ALONE NOW, like, totally! Oh my. Life's gonna be so freaking lifeless. )': Without my love-cum-boyfriend-cum-husband-to-be-cum-laughing partner-cum-many other things beloved. I'd be so absolutely NOT ME!!! Went to meet him today and err, emptied his wallet ))): I feel so bad now.

Weet! His birthday coming! I think I'm like more excited than him! HOHOHO. :3 I LOVE WANGYICHENG CAN?!?!?! heh heh! Dear, iiieee lurbxzxz euuu worxzxzxz! (:

Going to bed to wait for his call now. BUHBYE!!! :D

p.s : ilovemyhoneyfuckingtruckloads.

快发疯了。

哇靠。我这几天都得呆在家，做个好吃懒做的大懒虫。听起来就觉得没出息，真烦勒！没工作，没金钱，没地位。不知怎么搞得，最近都常常乱发脾气。还害得我的蜜糖(honey)常常为了我生闷气。就拿昨天那件事来说好了，他去打球，喝好朋友聚一聚，我就感到不爽。真搞不清楚我到底是怎么了！不知道是那根神经出了错。超生气自己的！

好饱哦！刚吃完pastamania， 好好吃哦！我一家四口吃才$33.50， 有pasta, nachos, 面包。真是物超所值! 开心哦！我吃的Vongole，超棒的！里面的clam不像其他的餐厅一样放2-3只，pastamania给的是一整盒！超开心！

哎哟！真伤心! 蜜糖要开始工作了！我要开始寂寞了。想了就伤心。 蜜糖的生日要到了，伤脑筋。不知道要送他什么才好。我又不是什么亿万富翁的孩子。):

爱你哦，我的蜜糖！

I love my honey by carloads, busloads, TRUCKLOADS!!!
HAPPY 7TH MONTH HONEY! I LOVE YOU!
Yes dear, you're my only loved guy, now and forever.
I had already wasted 16years to look for a guy like you.
So now, I'm going to treasure every moment with you!
Totally hoping that I'd be yours forever and you'd be mine forever!
I yearn for hugs, your warmth and your love (:

Now dear, here's a lil poem for a big lover like you. Hope you enjoy it!

Is one month an anniversary?
"Anno," after all, refers to "year."
But in my heart there's such a celebration
That bells must ring! And words? Well, I don't care.

In our lives there will be many years:
The world will turn and turn around our love.
Real anniversaries will come and go,
Yet none could more than this my wild heart move!

I know this cannot be what it might seem:
A perfect song that will not have an end.
It's just the newness makes it seem like spring,
Yet though it age, it will age like wine.

I love you dear.
MUACKS

CHIANG CHIANG CHIANG CHIANG~

iiieee lurbsss myzzxzx BABYXZX BOYXZXZ loadsloads WORXZXZXZXZX!

Orh man, spam day!!! :D
I love to spam my honey's comment box.
YEEEHAA!

Back from holiday

I'm back from KL, malaysia. I bet many things happened when I'm not around. Feeling damn insecured. Damn tired and my whole body's aching from the horse training and horse ride. I got to know this very cheeky 'lil horsey boy, Chester. I rode on him that afternoon and he kept giving me surprises! Including stopping suddenly to shit. >.<

Upsetting to see my very own honey talking about someone who once hurt him and yet, he's still forgiving and mentioning her. )))': Feeling damn immature now. ]: Its like a chain effect, if she's mentioned once its coincidental, twice, by luck. But the third time? On purpose? ): Feeling super upset. Sigh. Shit la! Im turning into some evil, narrow-minded, unsecured kind of girlfriend. Suck la!

I don't know what to say now. Its like a hand grasping your whole damn heart and you're suffocating.
I doubt anyone would understand ))):

Shulan inspired me

Just finish reading SHULAN's blog post. Quite interesting and I've decided to translate it into english. :3

Its regarding people who go around saying how shiok or how exciting it is to make love in outdoors and they're super proud of it. Hah. ._. Probably Shulan's too stressed with his exams and somehow wants to talk about something he likes. HAHA. (he's going to kill me!)

Okay. It goes like this. Some suggestions for outdoor sex :
- Garden
- balcony
- Phone booth
- Airplane
- Public toilet
- Classroon
- Cinema
- backstage
- riverbank
- dark alley
- beach
-swimming pool
- sports hall
- in the boat
- rooftop

Surprisingly he only listed less than twenty. Haha. I think erm, there's more lurhs. Like, in the bus, in the train, in cars, in kitchen, in the office by the photocopier machine? Haha. Think I watch too much TV ready. ._. Being a novice in this "sex circle" I guess I have to learn more from shulan. He's hell of an expert man. HAHA. Who knows if he decided to post something about sex position? (((:

Okay, time to go miss my honayeeeeeeeeeee...
BYE!
loads of LOVE.
Roar