Was It A Wise Decision

I can't read you at all, I tried time and again. The more times I tried, the more upset and disappoint I get.

I don't know if I've made the correct decision, time will show everything. It will.

本小姐 has collected both her EZlink card and her student Admin card. Photo damn ugly!!! ):
I just realised that, I might be one of the worst girl you people would ever meet (:

How awesome xD

Me with 2little terrors(:

BYE!

单身生活，我来了.

Too much disappointment,too much problem. You don't want to give in or whatever when I've put in my effort, I can do nothing but give up. I don't know why should I bother if you don't even want to tell me or discuss with me what's wrong nicely. What's your bloody reaction when I wanted to help. Everything revolves around you. I give up. Since you didn't even bother to do anything to salvage the situation, I see no point in this relationship anymore. Call me selfish or whatsoever.

The whole house will be empty again

The two little terrors will be off from my house and the house would be real quiet again. See 'em next year lor.

Daddy's back to Oman on Sunday night. Don't know why this time round, I felt a little more upset and teared after he board the cab. )': Sob...But before he left, he gave us a treat at Hansang Family Restaurant. Korean food, awesomeness. (: The bill went to 230++$ that adds up to around 60$/pax. Had premium Wagyu Beef and pork ribs(: Awesome! [:

Had a very long day yesterday. It was Yeye and grandma's birthday. [: Had volleyball trial yesterday, super off form ): All the ones with experience was from their vb team in Secondary school, I'm the only one without training for 4years straight. And I'm only better than the freshies for maybe, a little. I've decided to give it up, not my forte. No use to join if I'm not in the main team. And I can't click with those with ample experiences, they're "too good" to mingle with someone who didn't have proper trainings for 4years straight. My bad, I'm not good enough for the team.

So...I'm gonna try out for the Student Ambassor club or whatever lurhs. Kendo, out of question, it cost $620+ to buy the full gear. WTF. Suggestions of what to join? Maybe I'd join FRISBEE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!xD

Right, no time for r/s. Same boring stuffs everyday. Sigh. My group had already done our wk3 proposal. ._. So much ahead of deadline. Lol. So much research to do SIA!!! Wtf. 3months for the project. Our very first project, aeroplane body.

YAY! I've been outta the torture of some yakking of a foreign GIRL in my class who talks to me nothing but clubbing. I told her I DON'T CLUB! FOR FUCK SAKE! Walao eh, what has it gonna do with me if you wear a 5inch heels to the club for 2consecutive days and you're too tired to take train?! DON'T FUCKING GO CLUBBING THEN!!! NABEI!

She comes to school for alternates day lor. Why the fuck she goes to school ah? Don't understand, luckily, She's NOT in my project group, if not confirm CUI one lor. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.

Baby practically has NO time for me ): WEAH. WHY LIKE THAT...

BYE!♥

Why don't I just escape?

It has been a long day for me. Really. I woke up early in the morning with mum,dad&brother for the baby's ultrasound scan. My oh my, BABY BOY! Saw his little dingdong when the doctor scanned somewhere near that leg. That little cheeky boy opened his leg so widely that we can see his dingdong damn clearly. I felt very touched when I see a little life in my mummy's tummy. Makes me wanna tear for a bit. Oh well. Little brother on his way to the world in another 5months(:

I don't wanna share with you guys what made me upset. It's boring. Its just a very minute problem that made me felt damn awful. I didn't expect that coming. Seriously, it wasn't a part of what should be today.But hey, I tried my best earlier on, I still cant. I'm never good enough for you.

Went to beach Rd to have lunch. Plenty of food there, the chicken rice is awesome. The belgium desserts are " MUST TRIES ". Cheap and good. You can go shop around the Army market for some cheap digs. See, a one stop place to go. (:

Right, dinner was great 'cos I went to my favourite kopitiam restaurant opposite SPH. $60+ gave us a very satisfying meal, 3cans of drinks and a bottle of Tiger. Cheap aye? Yes. It adds up to less than $10/pax. Wthxoxo

BYE

Stickman On the Run!

Finally survived 5days of school [:

I woke up with super ultra swollen eyes, which made my already small eyes look EVEN smaller! ): It looked like 70% of my eye is closed ._. Add ugliness to my already ugly face. AHHH, FUCK WHATEVER THAT MADE ME LOOKED UGLIER!

Damn suay lor! Down with fever for 2days but still went to school and I still got those fucking don't know what that made my eyes so swollen and puffy and ugly! ): Its either the medicine or some dust. Shouldn't sleep beside the window. Tsk! And there's blood threads/dried blood in my phelgem (I don't know how to spell). Wth. Got blood leh! That means my throat or my windpipe must be damn infected and its bleeding. Lol.

My throat still hurts big time. Even when I try to swallow a bit of saliva, it hurts. And at some point of time, I can't even breathe through my nose, I have to suck in air from my mouth with million of dust particles. And there's like something stuck in the passage in between my mouth and nose. Its neither here nor there. SUCK BIG TIME. Feels like I'm going to die soon ._.

Somemore, he's out doing some kendo stuff. And he's going to be real fucking busy soon. Damn it! Now we have even LESSER time together. wtf ): School,CCA,Work,Basketball,Friends. Wahlao. Can't even find a slot for me lor. Shit man. Soon, it'd look like, I got bf but look like dont have. ):

Think on the negative right, you'd get things like :

• Bf/Gf gets real busy and have NO time for you.
• When there's no time together, they tend to drift apart.
• And when they've drifted apart, they start to lose the feeling they once had.
• After losing the feeling, they either quarrel or ignore each other like how they did.
• Finally, they either silent break or one of them will suggest to break-up 'cos their so-called feelings died.

See see see. This happened to me before lor! That was exactly what happened to Mr.M and I. Thankfully, he's not those kind of jerk who push the blame to you and stuff. Although I was upset after the break-up, I was definitely not as upset as I was 2Bfs ago. Before the 2Bfs was this person whom I won't mention, where we had a very "tangled" r/s which was a drama for me. And before the 3bfs and so on and so forth, it was all very short r/s which I/them ended in a very clean method. EH WAIT! back to the topic.

Ya la, something like that. Maybe some couples with super strong love will overcome this shit. But it definitely doesn't apply to me and Wyc, our love isn't that strong yet. If not we wont be quarrelling over some medicore stuff, won't we? That's why I'm scared ):

Soon, in another 2 weeks or so, it'd be our 1year anniversary :D I'm so looking forward to it!
I'm crazily saving money for it. Incase if we need to go somewhere special. I might be able to fork out some $$$ :D YAY ME!

Alright. Its 10.22pm now and he's still not calling me lor. ]': So upsetting!!!
WAHLAO! KENDO GOT ALOT OF GIRLS SIA!!! Shit man! QUIT LA GIRLS! QUIT KENDO!
I'm gonna get worry again ))): FUCK LA! WHY CAN'T I STOP WORRY ?!?!?!

Don't want to blog ready, damn pek chek.

NO LOVES LA!

WA LAO EH!

本小姐我发高烧了啦！哇靠！整天在冷气房里进进出出，不感冒才怪！头痛得要死，走路又走不稳。他妈的！上学几天就这样，接下来的三年要怎样啊！真是的！刚刚在班里还失声嘞！说话好像男生。他妈妈的好难听！蜜糖说我不是发烧，是发骚。人家生病了还要捉弄人家。是怎样嘛！讨厌！

咳～没力了！

拜拜！

Loveyou! ♥

World's Spinning!

Icks! I'm having a major headache, my room is spinning, I lost my voice, I feel that my throat turned into a desert, my whole body is aching, my temperature is 38.4degree. Am I having a fever/virus? It must be me walking in and out of air-conditioned places too often. I always get sick when that happens ): Goddamn it! I feel so fucking sick now.

As usual, promise broken. Sigh, have to get use to this, even when I'm sick. I'd go pop a panadol later. I sound so man now ._. I don't want to elaborate what happened today, totally make me lose appetite and my own bf doesn't even know that I'm sick. WTF? This suck man!

I bought Xavier Chong's present just now. Si bei budget, actually... I could afford another 10$ but...someone who broke the promise did/said something then I didn't use that 10$. Oh well.
I'm really feeling fucking unwell!!! ): My throats burning!!! HELP!

F* YOU LA! KNNBCBB! FEVER FEVER GO AWAY! FUCK OFF!

Feeling damn moody now. ):

Many projects coming... )': Don't like poly leh. HAHA.

HELP!

I'm drowning in excessive information/lectures& tutorials!!! I can't do the Mechanics tutorials2! And it's only the 2nd day! OMFG! Mathematics drained ALL my brain juices today. I'm one of the weakest student in maths in my class. How great huh? And someone( I forgot who ) told me this..." Your maths like that still dare to take engineering course?" The impact of this question was so huge that I got a headache, almost instantly. ):

And maths textbook is 21.50$ It's FUCKING thick hor! On par with the physics textbook. I'm gonna grab both of them tomorrow. Happy carrying those books! HAH!

It's XavierChong's birthday tomorrow and I've yet buy him any present. ): BOO!!! I'm a lousy sister! :/ Maybe I should get him a pair of boxers! HAHA! Ya lor. I should. Okay, I will :D

Mathematics & Mechanics are both major problems for me. I'm going to read up the IP Chem's notes. Hope that I can manage physic & chemistry. If not I won't be able to do well. Sigh.

Well, I'm going back to revision. BYE WORLD!

Shari's converting into a full time nerd!

LOVES! ♥

WYC, I love you.

1st Day Of School

Bahh...I'm dead tired :/ I hope I get used to it soon, if not confirm die one lor. Lucky I have baby to accompany me during me breaks. Phew. And...school starts at 1pm tomorrow!!! HIPHIPHOORAY!!! But...I'm going to school at 12noon to accompany baby 'cos he's having a one hour break. [:

Right. And physics is such a chore! We've to get this 55$ college phyics textbook lor!!! And its fucking thick leh! Wtf! And I bought the CP lecture notes but found out that I can access it through the net lor. Sibei jialat.

If all the modules need that 55$ kind of the textbook ah...I confirm die one lor.

I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO DON'T ANSWER THEIR PHONE.

AND YOU WYC, IF YOU DO THIS ONE MORE TIME!!! I"M GOING TO KILL YOU!

Angry hor I tell you!

BYE!♥

PS : I'M DAMN FAT LOR! ): DIET!

SEG ORIENTATION ( PART ll )

Blindfolding in progress

NMS & BME'09

OGL Fight

So sad that I've such OGLs & Classmates! xD

Finding a dumb chair ):

Always in the centre HAHA!

[: NMS0902

I don't like smiling to the camera already.

" Put the leave behind the people's back..."

SEG ORIENTATION

NM0902 + EXTRA OGL xD

I'M THERE LOR!

NM0902(:

Weird blow wind blow game ._.

I hate NAZ lor. HATE HIM.

I hate cow milk!

Hooray for class!!!

Happy studying in the next 3 years!

So Upset

Sigh, just mentioned that I miss you and you've not spending enough time together, then you want to go out yet again. I seriously don't know if any of your friend's advice given to you had any use. You complain that you're very tired, this and that. Tired to chat with me on the phone, tired to text, tired to do anything that has got to do with me. But apparently, you have ample energy to go for your basketball game. Who's not upset huh like that? ):

Damn upsetting lor. But he'd never know one la. Tell him he will give all sorts of excuses, don't tell him he'd say..." Up to you lurhs, you want like that I also cannot do anything" THEN WHAT THE HELL YOU WANT ME TO DO HUH. FUCKING UNFAIR...

I hate this kind of treatment. I regret tolerating this.

BETTER DAY!

Shafiqah, one of the very few girls in class.

[: WAH~ Today is so much better than yesterday! Initially, I didn't plan to go 'cos I got something. But baby said there might be a sports trial or something ._. In the end also don't have lor! Sadded. Anyways, today was way much better lor! I think I'd skip the Cheers part 'cos alot of people heard it already. Then...we went for a Meet-Your-Personal-Mentor session a.k.a meet your PEM. Our Mentor, Dr.LiYing. Is a china teacher who speaks english slang in china accent?! Haha. Okay lurhs, I think I'd like school. Then in class, I started to open up myself and start talking to the others. Because all of 'em knew me yesterday, and I didn't bother if they'd talk to me, I just continue to yak and yak away. Haha, I think they had a bad time listening to my crap HAHA! Too bad...

TO : CLASSMATES OF NM0902,

HAHA! YOU GUYS WOULD HAVE TO TOLERATE MY NONSENSE AND STUFF FOR THE NEXT 3YEARS! HAHA. TOO BAD IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT...BUT...YOU HAVE TO WHAT!!! :D

FROM : SHARICHONG/WALTZ DANCER/CHAIRMAN/VICE-CHAIRMAN/OUTSPOKEN STUDENT/WHATEVER!

And...I was highly voted to be the most outspoken student lor. Feel so proud man! HOHO. [: I'm fucking thick-skinned and buay paiseh one. HAHA.

Baby was right, I cannot control not talking and laughing one lor. xD My classmates are damn funny leh!!! And I was close to winning a 380$ printer leh. SAD SHIT! ):

Then...whilst playing game in the sports hall, I invaded the Aerospace territory. But they welcomed me and made me felt good to be clicking off with 'em! DAMN COOL! [: Haha, on my way to Mac, I met them and they were so excited! HAHA. Super click with those people lor. No girlfriends yet in school. SIGH! I think all the girls don't like me lor. Walao ): Sad case.

Had a fun time with baby after school today. Hope everyday will be like that lor. :D

BYE!
NM0902, ADD ME AH!

♥you,
SHARI.

WORST DAY IN APRIL

ORIENTATION :

THIS IS THE LOUSIEST ORIENTATION I'VE EVER ATTEND! Wtf?! They made us sit in the Theatre For Arts(TFA), a lecture room for like...3-4hours! Thank god its air-conditioned...I was sleeping throughout part of it! :D And..the so called "bento" tasted horrible! He's obviously too tired to bother about me. :/ Classmate : occasionally,we'd just complain together and whine and whine and they'd make fun of me. 'Cos I was doing a dumb Waltz for a forfeit! I should slap my own mouth aye. I shouldn't have suggested Pole Dancing and back-to-back chicken dance ._. Me and my big fat mouth. :O Stupid game of concentration! Sigh. Damn disappointed with the Orientation man. Lucky during lunch, baby accompanied me. If not I'd die of boredom! ):

After the orientation...disaster! )': We agreed that we'd go for dinner together today 'cos we seldom get to eat dinner together. Then, he told me in the afternoon that he needs to work at 7.
And...he forgets to bring his working shirt. I finished my Orientation at around 5.30pm. Then we quarelled in the train ._. Long ago, he said that he wanted a nice dinner with me. So, I saved up some cash and tried to delay the time that I have to reach home, just to have a nice and cosy dinner with you. But sigh, under this kind of circumstances ya lurhs. I fucked up. Then he said that he wanted something light eg. fastfood. But due to the my super sensitive/prone to sore throat throat, I told him that if he wants, I'd accompany him to eat but he refused. Then we trained to Bishan, he asked me to go back home by myself. But I still had time to spare 'cos I told my mum I'd be back at only 7pm. When he left the train, I followed. It has been time since I accompanied him back home, so I thought I could secretly accompany him back home. Then... while he was talking on the phone to " I-don't-know" who, definitely NOT me, he stopped suddenly and turned back and saw me. ._. And I got a good scolding from him. I told him to proceed home and I'd just follow quietly and would go home when its time to! I don't know what happened but he was angry for no reason at me lor! I cannot understand what's wrong with your own gf accompanying you home lor. No need to get so fucked up right? Then...you said you wanted to take a bus home 'cos you're tired so I followed. No matter how much my leg was in pain, I climbed up the bridge and all you did was pulling my shirt infront of so many people, asking me to get down when I was a few steps away from the top of the stairs?! So, I see, you were arranged to meet your friend huh. If I've known earlier, I won't be so stupid to follow you lor. Still have to get scolded by you in the bus?! Sigh.

Now, to the lunch I've prepared for you.I woke up at 5+am in the morning just to make that for you, and even prepared it the night before. I'm not a very good cook, that's why it took me so effing long to just do that for you. There's Love, Effort and Hardwork in it. But what was it's ending? It ended up as pieces of garbage. ): My effort! ): So sad. Sigh.

My left knee is aching now, again ): I bet I can't sleep tonight. I always can't sleep when my left knee hurts/ache. Its like...a bone rubbing sensation. SHIT MAN!

SUCK. I don't think that I deserve that.

And... I took a fucking wrong bus just now. I thought it was 88 but it turned out to be 13 ._. My eyes were super welled up with tears can?! ]':

Sigh, hope tomorrow will be a better day!

BYE.

P.s : Hafiz( my OGL ) just text me to ask me to go to the orientation tomorrow ._.

Out To DAISO

I super ♥ DAISO!!! :D I spent 22$ there today and am very happy with what I bought!!! HO HO.

We bought... :
2pairs of stainless steel chopticks,
A chopstick case,
2 containers for our lunch in school
A brush for Machi
Deodorant for Machi
2Plastic clear files
Colour Pen(10)
Highlighter(5)

(: I'd now go to Daiso to get my daily needs!!! :D DAISO! DAISO! DAISO!!!

But...the next place we went...FUCK LA!

This cafe/restaurant called "Hot Tomato/Tomatoes". We are actually dumb enough to go inside, he said that "我们是被骗进去的!" Sigh, they have, lousy food, lousy service and lousy atmosphere. Sigh... ): The waiter had serious attitude problem! >:/, there's people quarreling just beside our table, the Aglio Oglio tasted horrible, the lamb steak was wtf?!. What was acceptable is only the Ice tea&Lime juice ._. Should have ate Chippy's or some takoyaki, cheap and nice. ._. Or we can even go to Nebo, its like SO MUCH BETTER!

I miss going to Nebo!

No money!!! ]: ME SPENT ME LAST 30$

I Really Didn't Know That

Now I realised, I am the one who always bring trouble to you. I am very sorry. Sorry for letting you get reprimanded for nothing, sorry for disturbing your sleep, sorry for making you angry. Its all my fault. I have no courage to be with you anymore. For the first time, you flare up at me, you screamed at me, you get irritated because of me. I won't cause you trouble anymore, I promise. I'd make myself out of your sight. As far as possible. I'm sorry. But, I was really feeling very unwell, I doubt you'd want to listen. Anyways, take care. Those promises to be fulfiled when school starts, I won't be able to do it. I wont be able to make heart-warming bento for you, won't be able to hold your hand and go to school, won't be able to see you as closely as I want to. I'm sorry.

I love you♥
The greatest failure in history.
ShariChong

Am Feeling Very Unwell and Upset

TO YOU : IF YOU HAPPEN TO READ MY BLOG, TAG ME, SO THAT I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL, PLEASE, THANK YOU. ♥

Last night, I discovered something shook me, tremendously. I was feeling very upset, very confused and lost. I never expect that to happen. It occurs to me why so many things happen. All the "why"s I had were solved. I was really feeling very...betrayed? All the negative thoughts came to me, all of them. I am still feeling very upset now.

Yes, I was being way to paranoid, I didn't dare to put down the phone till I hear your voice. I didn't care if I've waited for 2-3hours, I really didn't bother that much. When you fell asleep, I told you alot alot of stuff... Somethings that I won't be able to tell you when you're awake, I'm afraid that everything will become a burden for you. I was really lost. But when you finally woke up, I was so relieved and I felt as though I'm saved. But what came after that was expected. I didn't expect you to flare up at me, I didn't expect you to ignore me like that, I didn't expect you to brush my problem off... I might be a little paranoid but who was the one assured me that he'd be protecting from all problems, be it big or small. This morning's incident really shook me, real hard. I didn't know it at all. Your reaction. I've told you so much about why things happened, my horrible experiences and what I get from the others now. I thought you'd know, you'd understand. I really thought that you'd be the one protecting me. Little do I know, instead of getting comfort and security, I got cold shoulders from you. I tried to convince myself that you were really tired. But no matter how tired you were, shouldn't you at least take note of who's talking to you? I am seriously very upset now.

Everything suck. Including myself. Its all my fault, for being such an ignorant girlfriend. I'm forever not enough for you. I'd never ever meet up to your expectations. )': Do you know how many pieces my heart were broken into?

Dad, I miss you. Come back soon, please. I don't want Mommy to do that anymore. )': I'm really very scared. Nobody's understanding/caring about me. Everybody thinks that I'm a nuisance. Including the person I love most. ):

I feel so helpless...
Its so tired to stay alive...

Not been sleeping for more than 24hours...and counting...

Good Friday

Sigh, poor baby. When I hear him saying that how evil the old witch is, I get angry too. Why are most lady boss(s) like that?! I said most. Like my previous job, that witch was like that too! L*na Ho. T.T What's worst now is baby can't quit his job 'cos he's brother is one of the shareholders. ): Damn angry lor >:/ I personally pictured her as those skinny/dried up evil step-mother! Baby, I feel so 不值 for you. I hope that she get acnes/whatever that causes pain to her! :D Because of her, baby had been working for so long this 2weeks. And he's so tired to call and chat with me ): ( Am still waiting for him to call! )

He doesn't have anymore off days 'cos school's starting. Hmm. Maybe I'd ask mummy for permission and I'd go to Daiso to look for the lunchboxes and some stationaries for school. Pray hard that I find some cheapolata stuffs there. I'm practically PENNILESS!!! ): I spend my last 20$ on 3tee-shirts which I bought at the Army Market just now. They're real cheap and nice to wear :D I'm thinking if I should go get the tanktops. Hmm...Suggestions? And there's this bugger who keeps stealing shoes/slippers from my home! There are many many cases of footwears missing from my home lor! I just bought them a week ago leh! And it cost 7$. But...I found something cheaper at the AM today :D 5$ for a pair of slippers. Seriously, people can't choose when they are broke. Okay, who doesn't fancy branded stuff that are nice/comfortable? But when you're broke, you just have to bear with cheap stuffs. I've discovered that cheap stuff has its advantages too! 1) You can throw 'em away when you get sick of it and won't feel pain in your heart. 2) IT'S CHEAP! 3) You can reuse 'em as rags/whatever

However, if you mind that you'd see many people wearing the same thing as you, DON'T BUY 'EM! I don't really care about it now, especially when I'm broke. Poor people doesn't get to choose ya know?

Sigh, I'm getting more and more aunty... )': I hope baby doesn't mind. Moreover, I'm buying cheap stuffs 'cos I want to save more money for the both of us.

Sidetrack abit : Baby just text me that he MIGHT be the manager for another Gogo outlet!!! Geez!!!(Although the chances are slim but still !!! ♥)

Back to the topic...Yes yes, saving money for the both of us. (: I can't resist eating in restaurants!!! I'm craving for TAO's restaurant/DOZO/Hansang Korean restaurant/Curry favour and many more! planning for a surprise for our one year anniversary. SHHH!!! SECRET!

[:

I like the Belgium waffle at Golden mile food centre. (: YUMMY! Would bring baby there next time!

BABY! I MISS YOU. CALL ME SOON! I'M STILL W A I T I N G!

With loves,
SHARI♥

WYC Is A Very Busy Boyfriend!

No more horror movies for you Shari Chong. :/ I'm going to confess, I'm like the most timid 17year old girl you can find. I get dumb nightmares when I sleep and I usually associate my loved ones with the horror movies. ._. In a way or another, I do really think that those dreams/nightmares are rather ridiculous! 这就叫，日有所思，也有所梦。

宝贝，你最近也未免太忙了吧？知道你工作辛苦，也知道你想存多存一点钱。谢谢你那么辛苦就是为了给我比较好的生活。(: 你做的一切我都有放在心里，不用怕。等开学后，生活就不必那么辛苦了！我会省吃俭用，为我们的将来存多一点钱。好让你不必那么辛苦的！嗯，我已经下定决心假如你的生前大作战！呵呵。^^

好像跟以前一样，聊天聊通宵，一聊就是3-4个小时。聊得我们两超开心，超爽的！嘿嘿，你种甜蜜，你们不懂得啦！哈哈！只可惜，最近的他，太累了，根本没那个体力。善解人意的我，决定忍一忍咯！

Baby, I love you!
♥

爱你的我.

Nag only...

Wtf, just when I'm going to sleep...My grandmother start ranting about her whatever. ._. She's complain about all the wrong things we do, we say or whatever. But I never once hear that she praise me for things I did right. Then she'd continue to nag about things are not relevant. Tsktsk. Really, people gets damn naggy. Yes, I'm always learning the bad habits of people, whatever I did are wrong. But...who's the one rejected my help when I opened my mouth to ask? Who's the one who made me feel fucked up or "du lan" according to her. :/ Can't fucking please her man! Nag nag nag only...Complain complain only... ]': Don't make her start another topic mum, she's not stop I tell you. Yes la yes la... I on the tv for the whole day, I'm the only one who watch it hor? You didn't watch, mum didn't watch, XavierChong didn't watch. yeye didn't watch. Okay? Happy? :/ What time already and I still get these nag shits? Complain for the whole fucking night, who's the guai lan one? Who's the one who made us so guai lan? No doubt, you cook,you wash, you whatever. I did my part of helping you folding the clothes, helping you go to the supermarket, carry stuff for you. I don't understand why are you fucking picking on me. Money money money, If I got those money, I won't stay with you and trouble you already lor!!! Who's the one keep giving us a black face? YOU ARE THE FUCKING ONE WHO'S NOT GIVING US A CHANCE TO HELP YOU LOR! You can ask me for help but you REFUSED to! Not that we don't want to help you. You didn't even ask for it. When I asked you what you need me to help? What kind of fucked up face/attitude you gave? COMPLAIN FOR ALL YOU WANT LA! I can tell you that I feel even happier facing the computer than facing your face. CAN?! Who's the one who's bearing a grudge huh? Fucked up. Ya la, my brother is the best can? He's your best grandson la hor. I'm the worst la. Everyone is better than me? He's spoilt by you all okay? Sigh... Everything we say are excuses okay? Ya la, whatever you say la okay. If you think you're very upset over me,so be it. I don't fucking care. You say that I don't do housechores for you, please la, think of the times I do something back to show how much I appreciated you. Fuck la. If you think you so called 白养 me la hor. That day, you asked me to take back the clothes in the hanger blah blah, I did what you wanted me to do. You didn't even fucking bother to say anything except nagging that why didn't I finish folding all the other clothings! !@#$%^&* Wtf, I'm just venting my anger. This might be disrespectful but I got to vent it out, if not, you guys shall continue seeing my GUAI LAN FACE (:

SCHOOL'S STARTING!

Hoorray!!! Finally, although I know that I'd whine that school's not as interesting, not fun, blah blah. But I'm still looking forward to the start of my first term in a poly. [: Something struck me when Angeline called..." What should I wear when school reopens?" Deng deng deng deng... WARDROBE MALFUNCTION!!! :O OMFG!!! No mini skirts/mini shorts...haha. But I don't think anyone actually cares about it! :3 So...I'm saving for a shopping spree :D

Okay, back to the start of the school... I'm thinking of making bentos for baby. That way, I can save more money for shopping/eating at more posh restaurant/for the sake of saving. [: Gonna go look for some yummy looking lunch-boxes. That way, even if my bento taste horrible, baby would still eat it 'cos it'd look nice :D

YAY! BENTO CRAZE!!! :D I'm still craving for korean food. HUANNI!!!

Right, baby's working now and I'm so bored & tired after looking for so many recipes/designs and everything related to bento!!! Gotta go call up angeline and chat up with her. Maybe I should (: Baby baby I miss you!!! !@#$%^&* Hope the aunty reports to work later, then baby would knock off earlier :D Didn't have enough time to really talk to him these few days. Sigh, I just want to cuddle in his arms and watch tv like that day )':

BYE WORLD.

Am I A Very Bad Daughter?

I told my mum how I felt yesterday night. I bet she's heartbroken, so am I. But I'm relieved that she knows how I am feeling now. Hmmm. Maybe we should really communicate, she's right. I know that she's probably cry in the room. Sigh.

We went to Grandpa's place that day.

Right, I'm going out later. Hoo-ray.

Updates/

Yippy, I'm back home. :3 Phew, I'm so f**king tired :O Had a really nice time with honey today :D Today might be the most loving day this month! And school's starting in less than 2weeks time, with the orientation coming followed by the official start of school. Guess everything would be better after school starts!!! I'm dead tired. WYC, I looooooovvvvvvveeeeeeeee you!!!

BYE! ♥

I Want To Tell You How Upset I Am.

Say that I'm lack of confident in myself. Yes, indeed. 我没有把握可以把你永远牢牢的绑在我身边。已有什么风吹草动，我都会感到威胁。不知道自己几时变得那么差劲。是因为你吗？好没信心，一旦知道有其他girls出现在你事先范围时，我就会觉得忐忑不安。怎么会这样？你给我的誓言呢？好辛苦。虽然跟你在一起我很开心，可是，你已不再我身边，我就会开始紧张，开始怀疑。:[ 好差劲哦！我不想失去你，不像这样。我只想跟你开开心心的在一起，不是像这几天一样。我很会吃醋，你不是不知道的哦。

骇，我还真是失败。

好讨厌我自己。哎呀，死掉算了。不回加重你的负担。

I can almost drown myself in my tears.

I LOVE YOU!

Sucks To Be Me.

I can't figure out why will things turn out this way. I can't bring myself to actually trust you. Why am I taking everything you said as excuses. Honestly, I don't know. 2days ago, things started to turn ugly, real ugly. I can't stand this, honey, do you know that?

Yesterday, I thought I'd die. I really thought I would. I guessed you were too busy to even bother about me. I'm too upset to do anything for these 2days. I wanted to run away from this very tensed atmosphere. I want to run to somewhere where I can not face everything I'm facing. Maybe by going away, you'd miss me. Or we'd probably end up as strangers to each other someday. )':

I just wanted you to pamper me, just a little. Not as harsh as you were. Honey, I do ♥ you. But I don't think this is the way things should be.

iloveyou.
Think of the times we love each other so much. Now?
Much of a difference? Yes, very much.

P/s : I really hope that it'd end by today. )': Its a torture for me honey

FUCK ALL NAG SHITS MAN!

ADD SOME SPICE TO MY LIFE PLEASE!

Boys Over Flower had ended at Episode 25. Yes, it was a happily ever after ending...For Now. I don't know if they've Series Two. :? I hope so!!! Junpyo, Jihoo, I'd miss you!♥ I'd be watching it again from my KBSworld :D YAY!

What I do at home nowadays is :

Watching the tube
Playing my cousin's DS/my brother's PSP
Using my lappy
Sleep
chatting with baby
taking care of the 2terrors
&going to the supermarket

._. Fun hor. Haha.

BYE!
♥you honey

HAPPY ARPIL FOOL'S DAY!

Haha, I didn't play any April Fool's joke this year. Guess I've finally outgrown the stage where I still laugh my ass of some silly April Fool's joke. :D

I woke up as early as 5Am today and didn't have a very good morning :/ Tsktsk. Anyways, GYSB had made me very very proud. I've been so nervous through out the whole time at SCH(Singapore Conference Hall). And I was labelled a HELPER. HA. Oh, and did I mentioned that Miss Yeo Angeline got a very very bad habit of being late?! Tsktsk. Her 5min was like 20min lor! Walao, I told the band members that I'd be there by 7am. ._. Nevertheless, GYSB got a SILVER can?! WALAO, I'm damn proud and damned impressed. [: Way to go guys. I ♥ you guys! :3 But the thing is, we didn't get tickets 'cos Mr.Yee thought that helpers can go in without tickets. )': So me,Angeline&Kh were stranded outside the hall! )': So sad.

Anyways, I finally get to go out and look for honey(: but I was so tired to show how happy I was. Not forgetting that I flared up at him 'cos he overslept and I got very angry. I was very tired already then he still oversleep. ): Its okay. He went to school to pick me up and we cabbed to this coffee shop beside AMK Jubilee to have Western Food. Its called " Aston Express "

I had sirloin steak with baked potato&pasta salad and honey ate blackpepper chicken with mashed potatoes and salad. Very satisfying meal. I was feeling so sleepy that I got no energy to stand on my own. I was leaning on honey through out the train ride. Haha, can make use of the chance to whack his ass. :3 Hehe. ♥him too! And he stole a glance at my diary! hmpf.

Baby hanis and Farah Dina went back to their granny's home. Night off. HAHA! [: But I'm missing them already! (:

Here's their photos(: ♥'em 2.

2 pretty sisters, the older one loves to take photo!!!

Here's me and the small one (: So cute right?

HAPPY ARPIL